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fuuuuck that is my circus. are those…? yep… those are my monkeys….. goddammit.

Man, self-shipping goes so hard. It’s so fun. I love having guilt free fun and being able to be silly. Everyone should try it.

thinking Such Insane Thoughts about gravity falls and parental love and liking your kids like. idk.

filbrick might love his kids in some way but he doesnt really like them. caryn loves her boys but doesnt care for them enough.

soos's dad might have liked the idea of a kid. but he never really loved him. abuelita had to take his place.

dipper and mabels parents probably love their kids, sure, but they fuck dipper up because of their issues.

wendys dad loves her as much as he can but she misses her mom so so much.

gideon and pacificas parents dont really love them. gideons parents fear him and pacifica fears her parents.

bills parents loved him so fucking much. it wasnt enough.

fiddlefords parents loved him enough to let him leave. but they left him with a bone deep fear of the "outside" in his bones.

but.. ford and stan. they arent even the twins parents but oh my GOD they love them. deep in their crazy old man bones they LOVE these kids.

fords angry and resentful but he sees them and he goes SOFT. he watches dippers every move and sees himself. he pats mabels fluffy hair "you're a good person, mabel."

stan loves these kids so much goddamnit. everything he does is for this family. you can see in every inch of him he just wants these kids to be ok. even when hes picking on dipper he wants to help so bad. he dies for them.

they are the best parents in the series and they save the world.

I love Stan's relationship with the kids so much.

GF emphasizes a lot of very real trauma in Stan's past. Everything from child abuse, homelessness, drug abuse, and survival sex work. And the way that meshes with Mabel being this truly genuine depiction of a weird little girl creates something that is very unique to the series.

It's really touching how Mabel just being Mabel heals Stan's inner child and the way he naturally clicks with her. The weird and creative little boy he used to be, before his father's abuse and toxic masculinity beat that joy and optimism out of him.

It's just damn good. It's a really beautiful depiction of an intergenerational relationship. And I haven’t really seen anything else quite like it. Because there’s also Dipper.

There’s this wall between Stan and Dipper that goes beyond his similarities with Ford and its gender.

Dipper is a boy and Stan clearly doesn’t really know how to handle that. He was taught that boys are raised in a very specific way. And like we see how Stan really struggles with his past, the way he talks about the boxing lessons in particular.

Masculinity is so deeply entwined with Stan's pain and it’s something he can’t easily unravel. How is he supposed to be able to criticize his father for 'toughing him up' when he feels like punching things is one of the only things he’s good at? It's fucking sad.

Parallels and contrasts between Stan and Bill in the new book and website

Aka miscellaneous thoughts that I'm too lazy to condense into something comprehensible– what you see is what you get folks! (Book stuff, DVD commentaries! The website that came out when I was trying to write this out and is now making me pull my hair out! But in like a good way? That god damn poem!)

not necessarily same coin stuff but I sure am thinking about it.

It’s been said that a large part of Ford’s relationships with Bill, Fiddleford and Dipper was him trying to fill a hole that his estrangement with Stan had left, with none of them clicking in that same way. Dipper was directly compared to Fiddleford as someone who was completely charmed by Ford but is ultimately too anxious of a person to properly deal with the life he's offering nor pull him back when starts going too far. Meanwhile, Bill is more analogous to Stan but to the extreme with all the doubts that Ford had been fed about Stan (that he was using him, he never grew up, he betrayed him, sabotaged the machine on purpose) turning out to be exactly true with Bill.

The book has Bill saying flat out that Ford wanted the charisma Bill had and then shows that at the peak of Ford's loneliness he was being envious of Stan's charisma, social skills and hands.

[STANLEY COULD HAVE MADE HER LAUGH]

(There’s an irony that Stan always thought that Ford was the popular twin even after doing embarrassing stuff like the kissing machine – if you haven’t seen the Swine Before Time Stan commentary get going, it’s great)

Then Bill swoops in with jokes and endless encouragement and the nickname only Stan used for him, all this in a way tailored for Ford to immediately like him while also reminding him of Stan but "better."

(The show rarely used it but Bill’s use of Sixer is extremely frequent in Journal 3 alone but the comics solidify it as being a pretty personal childhood nickname that kid!Stan used as his default way to call Ford.)

And then you see all of this working because Ford straight up writes Bill’s words using Stan's handwriting (and it turns out that Ford’s capital letter ‘for emphasis/angry’ font in general is the same as Stan’s handwriting too)

(It’s important to note that this is different from all the fonts that Bill uses for himself!)

All of this leads to the deja vu of Ford getting stabbed in the back by someone he was codependent on over a machine he thought was going to change his life for the better

Other things in the book that I’ve seen others point out and noticed myself:

Bill trying to reinforce that Ford would be alone without him, and threatening to tell Stan that Ford never loved him but the first thing Stan does in his letter is tell Ford that he loves him with their childhood code

Stan also only uses ‘Sixer’ in his letter when he normally tends to use a mix of nicknames post-Weirdmaggedon (sure it’s only twice but idk I find it noticeable)

Stan ripped a dollar in half when Bill taunted the reader earlier about how they wouldn’t do that

The promo photo vs the one in the book, Ford’s face being untouched vs Stan’s. While I initially interpreted this as “Bill’s book being a way to torment Ford” and then “him ending up having a meltdown at the thought of Stan”, the new poem kinda gives off an ominous vibe of "him moving on to focus on Stan instead whether he wants to or not"

Ford writing “miss you” in the bro code soon after arriving at Backupsmore which is shown in the Fiddleford photo, then Bill taunting Ford that he misses him

Bill and Stan now have another parallel of losing everything because of a genuine mistake but only Stan was willing to work to make up for it while Bill doubled down and became far far worse

The utter hatred Bill has for Stan being able to win in the end and get back his family

Both of them being institutionalized, with Stan’s mentioned in Guide to Mystery and Nonstop Fun (which has references to Bill liking Mabel for her chaos, silly straws, etc. Also Dipper basically came up with the Author theory but slightly wrong from theorising about the ink blot like a year before the Ford reveal)

(saturn devouring his son perfectly depicts my emotions when reaching this part of the book)

And now for the stuff we know from the website:

Bill having severe family issues with daddy issues implied since only his mum is mentioned directly with her trying to comfort him as a kid vs Stan having severe family issues with a definite focus on his dad while his mum was the only one to ask about Stan during that meeting with the principal and her being the only one to show up to his funeral

Both of them wear their dad’s hat despite of all of this

Bill starting a billion cults and has a lawyer called Multilevel Mark, Stan having his Scientology-esque cult being shot down by irl Disney and as a kid having his “technically a pyramid scheme” comic being shot down by a publisher

(I doubt that Stanentology would’ve gotten far but also you can see that a trend that the main way Bill gathers followers is by reading minds and revealing secrets only the victim would know, so let's hope that Disney-let-him-start-a-cult AU Stan never gets mind reading abilities)

Despite how we know how Stan is traumatised as hell from losing Ford, it’s noticeably isn’t referred directly in the Wheel of Shame (like you can’t tell me that the time between pushing Ford into the portal and starting the Shack isn’t as rock bottom as it gets, Bill literally recognises Stan in the first place by thinking about his brand). This probably is because Bill knows that they managed to repair their relationship and he’s fucking pissed about it.

There's further parallels between Stanley and Bill in poem; with lies and redemption and home, and further association with fire for the both of them

“Saw his own dimension burn.

Misses home and can't return.”

“Always dragged his family down.

One mistake, disowned, denied,

Only thing to do was hide.”

“One way out: the open road.

Reinvent, retry, reload.

A girdle, eyepatch, fathers fez,

"I'm a new man!" so he says”

“One way to absolve his crime.

A different form, a different time”

“His big break, it finally came,

Redemption from a life of shame.”

“Says he's happy. He's a liar.”

“Truth is just whatever sells.

When you've lost track of your lies,”

“Lie until you aren’t lying anymore”

Bill in a rotting corpse of a snake oil salesman

This triangle can fit so much self-loathing projection while being a hater

(Also it's funny that Bill is so insistent that Ford had to be the one who came up with the plan

Like look at this

See ‘em cogs turning in Stan’s head while Ford has clearly given up hope)

“How dare he dress up fancy when his jokes suck!!”

There's a parallel of Ford projecting onto Dipper in a way that makes him feel like kindred spirits with his nephew but Stan projects on Dipper in a way that causes him to be more harsh even if he has good intentions. Meanwhile Bill projects onto Ford in a more positive light in comparison to Stan, who in this case Bill wants to rip him and himself into shreds whenever he thinks of the guy. Bill’s shared love for fun/chaos with Mabel (despite them being so different at their core) is why he likes her the most out of all the Pines but that doesn’t stop him from trying to murder her (although I think most folks don’t know about that interview where Alex was like “yeah, I think Bill would’ve burnt Ford alive the moment he got the equation, he’s done playing with his toys at that point”)

Other tidbits:

I find it interesting that the full version of the Wheel of Shame has blue sparks and fades to grey scale (which automatically reminded me of his mindscape)

Stan signing off as Stanley in the book – this ain’t anything huge to chew on I'm just very over emotional about this… but also there’s Bill being called Billy by his family/in the codes

Ford thinking of Stan as childish/someone who never grew up and then we get hit by “yeah Ford always had some part of himself stuck at 18” oof

Ford underestimating Stan’s control over the mindscape, not knowing that he’s able to hide memories in Dreamscaperers, manipulate the layout of his mindscape enough to trick Bill and memory!Stan telling Dipper how to use the mindscape which Bill was genuinely surprised by

I'm headcanoning that Stan doing so bad at that history test is due to some latent bs from what Bill knows which is all crazy conspiracy level stuff

I think it's also intensely funny that all of the Pines promise that they'll murder Bill if they ever see him again and then they immediately turn to Stan and go “now it's your turn to write a letter! :D!!”

(I feel like the main requirement that the Theraprism has for Bill before he can reincarnate is mainly acknowledging his family idk which honestly would fit even better if his soul becomes Stan’s)

alex hirsch truly is like. the guy ever. he created one of if not the most renowned and successful disney tva shows. he clowns on said network. he won his high school’s bird calling contest. he hates trump and is always advocating for people to vote. also prank calls republican/maga hotlines and was on the washington post for such. he voices half the cast of his own show and does a deranged mickey mouse voice he uses for like two separate shows. he owns a giant taxidermy buffalo. he and his sister were on an international improv team in high school. disney censored practically all queer themes in his show and now he has a nyt best seller (and created the website plus recent interviews ect ect) that imply there was something going on between that fuck ass triangle and ford. a straight man creating good old man yaoi. creates the craziest rabbit holes to send the fandom down probably primarily fueled by adhd and coffee. he probably has his flannel sewn to his body atp and has thousands of sticky hands on the wall in his house. i could go on but he’s just truly such a interesting guy

the transition im crying

Artbook collection Master-post

Dorohedoro MUD AND SLUDGE + Dorohedoro Sketch Book 'Day Dream Hour' Artbooks 1-5 by Ryōko Kui (Dungeon Meshi) Delicious in Dungeon Adventurer's Bible world guide

Witch Hat Atelier Special Edition Volume 02 + 06 Artbooks Yokohama Kaidashi Kikou - Book of Paintings + Postcard Book "BLAME! and so on" Artbook

The Art of Ponyo The Art of The Wind Rises The Art of Kiki's Delivery Service

The Art of Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind Miyazaki Moebius exhibition catalog The Art of Moebius

"Der Mond" Neon Genesis Evangelion Artbook "EYES ONLY" SPY×FAMILY Official Fanbook The Art of Fullmetal Alchemist 1 + 2

Elden Ring Art Book Volume 1 + 2 Dark Souls 1-3 Design Works Bloodborne Official Artworks

SEKIRO - SHADOWS DIE TWICE Official Artworks Grimoire Nier + NieR Art – Kazuma Koda Art Collection

The art of Alice Madness Returns SCORN The art of the Game The FLCL Archives

The Art of Metal Gear Solid I - IV - Gallery Works and Studio Works Spider-Man Into the Spider-Verse -The Art of the Movie Spider-Man Across the Spider-Verse The Art of the Movie

The Artwork of Berserk Alphonse Mucha's "Figures Decoratives" AKIRA Club

The art of Nimona

Here's a link to the entire collection, in case any of the individual links are broken.

This post will also be edited as more Artbooks are added, check this link for the up-to-date version.

My vision for a Carmilla adaption is them leaning into both the fact that the novella is a confession and also that Laura is a liar. I want Laura to narrate that she absolutely didn’t fuck Carmilla while onscreen she fucks Carmilla. My vision.

So uh.. for anyone considering joining the Fandom post Matpat

Please read Clowns (the creator) rules and limitations considering Welcome home. He has been extremely stressed out lately from the popularity his creation has gained and well… we were already worried about the possibility of another huge influx of people coming from Matpat.

We all know there’s going to be people who don’t care, and that’s extremely unfortunate but please for Clowns sake just be Chill and respectful.

He’s here on Tumblr it shouldn’t be hard to find information, I won’t @ them because I’m sure they’re already stressed out and I don’t necessarily want to add to that even if I do mean well.

I don’t want to fight with anyone and really a lot of us don’t, so let’s just keep kindness in mind whenever we speak? Okay?

Like I can’t stress this last part enough, here’s a direct quote from Clown because I couldn’t put it in better words honestly

“Please remember not to reprimand others on my behalf, I know the intentions but its not worth your anger and time. I think focus on being kind to others instead, having fun with you and yours! (I will figure it out, do not worry!)”

You know that one scene from ‘the Road to el Dorado?’

I mean... Just a thought...

This would explain why FCG's eye was broken when he attacked Dancer and his old crew.

saw this in chat of the rebroadcast... this is an interesting thought. ...if this happens to actually be the reason for their murder bot rage, i hope Ashton dropkicks Dancer to the moon and back

I’ll never understand why anthropomorphic animal cartoons like Robin Hood and Zootopia will go to the trouble of creating character designs that are meant to be understood as “attractive” or even “sexy” to the human audience but explicitly avoid showing interspecies romances between anthropomorphic animals. Why is THAT weird but, like, trying to make rabbits recognizably sexy-coded to humans isn’t?

Sea Grunks Intro

Good god, I have been working on this for a while. What originally started out as small storyboard pro practice, ended up becoming an actual project. There was a good amount of time when I wasn’t sure I would finish it, but here it is. I hope you enjoy it!

Little Things in Novel A I'll Never Recover From:

Deuce having a conversation with a skeleton.

Ace being over the top respectful to Banshee to the point where he's apologizing to her when she's not even there.

Skull addressing Ace and Deuce as "master" (idk why he does it but it's rly cute).

The precious heart to heart between Deuce and Whitebeard 🥺 (Deuce becomes one of his favorite sons and no one can tell me otherwise).

How Whitebeard gets all ashamed when he burns his hand in the same spot and is only worried about Deuce being disappointed in him.

Ace and Deuce's attempted ferris wheel date.

The part where Mihal only ever leaves his cabin when something might be wrong with Ace (the crew loves him 🥺 so fucking much).

How Deuce is super defensive when the crew reads over his shoulder as he's writing, but is way nicer when it's Wallace (cuz Wallace is learning to read and it's like Deuce is actively making sure he doesn't discourage him which is so sweet).

Deuce taking haki coated kicks to the stomach multiple times just so he can break Dorrow's flame throwers in order to save Ace.

Dine and dash.

Thatch and Ace becoming insanely close friends and drinking buddies even BEFORE Ace joined the crew.

Flower Crowns 💐🥰💐🥰💐

When Ace shared sake with Whitebeard 🥺🥺🥺 (that whole cup exchange actually).

Everyone on the Spades panicking because they have no faith in Ace and are worried he may light a Celestial Dragon on fire if he's left alone to wander (which is, let's be honest, very fair).

Ace being an absolute fucking DISASTER of a man when he meets Shanks and tries to thank him for saving Luffy.

Ace: For I am but a humble country boy-

Shanks: What in the fuck...?

(Honey plz talk like a normal person I'm-)

Shanks figuring out who Ace's father is in .2 seconds because he's literally that smart.

Deuce heel kicking a bounty hunter over the ship railing (a jealous and protective boi :3).

Banshee: Are you sure this is okay?

Ace: Yeah it was Deuce's idea.

(BABY IS LISTENING TO HIS BOYFREN TO THE LETTER. Also the implication that Ace still and will always go to Deuce for advice and to help with plans even though they're part of Whitebeard's crew. It's just... so pure and romantic).

Kotatsu growling at Blackbeard 👌

Deuce fully prepared to DRAG Ace away from the battle with Jimbei after he collapses.

Deuce and Ace are in love bye.

o h b o y

So... Unfortunately, I am a monsterfucker and the elephant man in episode 1 somewhat...

Intrigues me.

So... Unfortunately, I am a monsterfucker and the elephant man in episode 1 somewhat...

Intrigues me.

Me, walking to school:

My headphones: **Red Signal by The Mechanisms**

Me, still walking, unfazed: Oh well, why not? It's 7:33 in the morning, a good time for an Eldritch Invocation. :D

"I see"

"Be seeing you"

There's a joke about an eye roll in here somewhere...

season 1 of the penumbra podcast

announcer: detective steel was just about to be literally murdered

*knocking* *screaming*

announcer: what luck! it sounds like he’s in

So, just finished the Penumbra Podcast episode 18

AND OH MY FUCK I WILL PUNCH YOU IN YOUR PRIVATE EYE, JUNO STEEL.

"Um, Jonny...your D'Ville is showing."

RQGG 2017

47:40 - “Which elder god do you identify with the most?”

EVERYONE LOOK HERE, THIS DESERVES SO MANY LIKES AND VIEWS

Also, yeah, spoilers for mag200

TMA x Villain(빌런) feat. @worldformula

I have decided that one of my favorite things about the Magnus Archives is that the one of the only unsexualized monsters or creatures (whether by the fandom or in the show) is the Vampires. I've literally never seen anything even mentioning them in a sexual or even romantic light. We were all collectively like "hnngnh seggsy hallway wife and husband 🥵♥️😳 werewolf cop lady step on me 🖐️😩 clown wife pls take my skin 🤪♥️🤡 oh vampire cool ig🙄 Where is my eyeball dilf at 👁️👁️🥵😍 prentiss🐛worm🐛me🐛pls 🥺🥺♥️"

This is almost as good as going all John Amehrst on Elias's office.

Extremely late crack AU where Gertrude and Gerry met the guy with the clown-eating Monster Pig and just took it back to the Institute. 

Jonah-James-Elias: I’m compelled to ask why

Gertrude: This is my new service animal.

Jonah: For what service?

Gertrude, with her longest pointed Stare: Eating clowns

Jonah:

Monster Pig, sitting outside Jonah’s office, staring in at him through the door he Knows was closed and locked when he came in: 🐷

And that’s where it stays. The titanic horror-hog wouldn’t go anywhere if it didn’t want to. It’d be there to greet Breekon and Hope the second they tried to walk in with their delivery. It’d devour them and the table in one sitting just to get at the Not-Them. 

It’d lay in wait, lurking around Jon and the Archive crew like a massive pink shadow–

Jon: Elias, I understand Gertrude was attached to it, but are you sure we shouldn’t relocate th–

Monster Pig, in the corner: 🐷

Jonah, Knowing it knows where he sleeps: The Pig Stays, Jon

–and turn up at the Unknowing, at which point it would devour the entire circus. 

Jon, Tim, Basira, Daisy:

Monster Pig: 🐷

Its job done, it goes snorting off into the night, maybe heading back to haunt its very best friend, Dylan Anderson…after a brief detour.

Jonah, sitting in his cell: Well, the Unknowing was a waste. At least there’s still the Dark Sun to string them along w–

Monster Pig, kicking down the door, having saved the best clown for last: 

 🐷  

tl;dr: The Monster Pig was Flesh-aligned, Stranger-averse, pro-clown-cannibalism, and would’ve saved the day if Gertrude had only taken it away to let it do what it loved

give me an AU where the gang accidentally purges Jonah in season 2, and then they have to spend the rest of the series trying to convince the other avatars that Very Confused, Mild-Mannered Himbo OG Elias is still housing the Eye’s most powerful servant.

smarter enemies like Jude and Annabelle are getting Suspicious and keep trying to visit the Institute to check. Elias remembers exactly 0 things about Jonah or being possessed and is no help at all. Jon keeps trying to make him study old letters while Tim and Martin have decided to just accompany Elias to all Jonah’s supernatural meetings and Weekend-at-Bernies their way through.

it’s a sitcom now:

Elias still thinks he’s mid-20′s and looks up to Jon as a nerdy big brother type.

there’s a running gag where Rosie can resolve any situation no matter how occult, dire, or how little she understands it.

whenever an avatar is Fooled by OG Elias they walk away saying “Jonah seemed a little different but I can’t put my finger on it” before being realizing something like “oh wait, he was wearing argyle! he hardly ever wears argyle!” and not questioning it any further.

jonmartin have nearly kissed like five times but they’re both still convinced they’re unrequited

what if oliver "I'm too much of my patron now" banks got yeeted into Somewhere Else with jon and martin just because he was that attached to the end.

and like that's already funny to me but then imagine if you will, jmart waking up in whatever romantic field of flowers or whatever and they're trying to have a moment only to find a confused oliver standing awkwardly off to the side like "hey guys what the Fuck happened I was takin a nap"

anyway postcanon jmart + roommate oliver au

My favourite word used to describe Jon in a fic is “coltish”. I’ve seen it used twice, maybe three times, and every time has been a delight because I think it just sums him up nicely

Physically it gives an impression of being kind of skinny and gangly, disproportionate and all leg, but still smaller than you’d expect

Emotionally it’s like “should... should that thing be able to move? I don’t think it should be able to walk let alone- oh god it’s coming this way-“

Undeniable multiple-divorce energy. My favorite dynamic.

When ur reading your Spooky Fanmail and realize you have enough of it to start an Institute dedicated to your own selfish aims academic research into the esoteric and the paranormal.