I Also Recommend To Put Together A Small First Aid Kit With Bandages, Band Aids, Ibuprofen And Paracetamol...

You can totally do it! Just remember to take breaks when your body ask for them, if not you are going to enter burn out, personal experience. Good luck this year!!

my academic journey (warning: i ranted) -

so ever since i started school till about the end of 8th grade i was always a 90%+/straight A student. the kind of child my classmates & cousins would be compared too. not trying to glamorize comparison btw, i personally think that's really toxic & pressurizing. so yeah, i was a "good" quiet kid. i listened attentively in class and submitted all my homework on time. the only complain teachers had about me was that i was "too quiet" but that wasn't a real issue. i was just shy but talkative with my few friends yano. i spent the entirety of 7th grade & most of 8th grade in online classes so my habits of studying went to shit. still somehow managed 91% in my 8th grade finals. and then 9th began and it all went downhill. teachers kept saying 'next year is ur board exams, u need to study a lot, etc, etc.' so if u're not from india we basically have these major 'board exams' at the end of 10th & 12th grade. but 10th boards don't really matter all that much, teachers just make a big fuss about it. 12th boards matter, but that's also the time we give college entrance exams and that sorta matters more according to most ppl. n yeah, idk what happened but i got overwhelmed. i could no longer just do well in class and study before exams and get good marks. i felt dumb. my grades didn't see a single improvement. i honestly gave up in the middle of it all and got sick of school. and at one point, it became less burn out & more clinging to the familiarity of not doing anything. i became lazy. and i became a hypocrite. i'd always tell myself, this time i'm gonna study, this time i'm gonna score well. well that 'this time' never came. 10th grade got even worse and i scored 73% in my board exams because i barely studied at all. at the same time, my relationship with my parents has constantly been unraveling. and i saw just how much of their 'pride' was dependent on me being the kid they could show off and smile widely when others replied 'wow she's going places'. my father can't hold a single conversation with me now that doesn't go back to me being a disappointment. and now i'm the kid who has to listen to her parents compare her to others. 'be like her, your friend', they say. halfway though 11th rn and i guess what?? still no fucking improvement. but the thing is i know this is the last straw. i can feel it. i got around 64% in my first tests (pa-1) of 11th. haven't gotten mid term results yet but i'm estimating just above 50%. and the thing is it's not that i can't score well. i know my potential all too well. i know i can score such high marks. but the problem is i don't study. if i just studied a couple hours every day, i can easily manage above 80%. with constant improvement i can manage above 90% again. but i don't. and that's ending right this instant. i'm not gonna turn into an academic weapon overnight or smth ik that. but i'm gonna start slowly but surely working hard. i have big dreams, i know i can achieve them if i just put in the effort. plans have been made, all i need to do is execute them. execute my laziness. i'm gonna get better. i'm gonna prove everyone who thinks i'm never gonna do it wrong, and i'm gonna prove myself right. this comeback will be for me, my inner child. the little kid in me deserves to not wind up a washed-out failure.

academic goals! -

pa-2 - 75-80%

11th finals - 80-85%

12th pa-1 - above 90%

uni - iiser (college for pure science research, bs + ms integrated)

Tell me you are fucked with out telling it, I'm starting, I have to make a 10.000 word easy for tomorrow and I only got a little bit over the middle of the essay, I say middle because Google docs does not count the notes you make, so that makes it's roughly 5.000 words. And tomorrow I have to work so I'm probably going to end up like today, working my ass off because I thought I could do it in a week.

Welp, you need to learn in some way. The good thing is that my essay is heavily influenced by photos, so it's going to be easier to instead of doing 10.000 words do like 7.000 and call it a day.

Isn't it odd how much fatter a book gets when you've read it several times? As if something were left between the pages every time you read it. Feelings, thoughts, sounds, smells... and then, when you look at the book again many years later, you find yourself there too.. a slightly younger self, slightly different, as if the book had preserved you like a pressed flower... both strange and familiar.

- Cornelia Funke, The Inkheart

My now regular photo dump of kitty induced serotonin before I hide it in the ever growing Pinterest Board from my therapist. Enjoy!

artists: francisco de goya (1746-1828)

✨DAILY REMINDER✨

Staying consistent is key to success! 💪 Whether you're chasing goals, fitness routines, or career dreams, it's the small, daily steps that count. 🌱✨ Set mini goals, stay positive, and hold yourself accountable. 🙌 Celebrate small wins and keep an eye on the bigger picture. 🎯 Consistency will guide you to your ultimate goals! 🚀

enough of pretty aesthetic notes, i want messy, shitass handwriting, chaotic notes only you can understand

Literal

listen. i don't mind studying in fact i like learning new stuff every day (yeah i might be a constantly distracted mf but that's a different talk) BUT I SWEAR TO GOD my college will make me have a stroke!!!!

is the most disorganized institution in the world. nobody knows shit in that fucking building but everything is a "no, we don't know, don't even think about it, not in a million years, fuck u!" answer every time you have the slightest inconvenience.

bureaucracy made me hate my degree choice.

STUDYING. DOESN'T. SUCK. AS. MUCH. AS. FAILING.

I love my career choices, I really do, but having more than 5 ten page essays in Arial 12 is going to end my mental health, the good thing is that like three are in groups, still with all the work load and everything is quite slow, and more with all the information I need to make a good presentation.