athomeamongtheheather - This single knife in my heart

athomeamongtheheather

This single knife in my heart

mae, she/her, 19, physics student & researcher

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athomeamongtheheather
1 year ago

being an adult is just dragging urself kicking and screaming to things that you will enjoy and that will be good for you

athomeamongtheheather
1 year ago
Once A Little Boy Went To School. One Morning The Teacher Said: “Today We Are Going To Make A Picture.”

Once a little boy went to school. One morning The teacher said: “Today we are going to make a picture.” “Good!” thought the little boy. He liked to make all kinds; Lions and tigers, Chickens and cows, Trains and boats; And he took out his box of crayons And began to draw.

But the teacher said, “Wait!” “It is not time to begin!” And she waited until everyone looked ready. “Now,” said the teacher, “We are going to make flowers.” “Good!” thought the little boy, He liked to make beautiful ones With his pink and orange and blue crayons. But the teacher said “Wait!” “And I will show you how.” And it was red, with a green stem. “There,” said the teacher, “Now you may begin.”

The little boy looked at his teacher’s flower Then he looked at his own flower. He liked his flower better than the teacher’s But he did not say this. He just turned his paper over, And made a flower like the teacher’s. It was red, with a green stem.

On another day The teacher said: “Today we are going to make something with clay.” “Good!” thought the little boy; He liked clay. He could make all kinds of things with clay: Snakes and snowmen, Elephants and mice, Cars and trucks And he began to pull and pinch His ball of clay.

But the teacher said, “Wait!” “It is not time to begin!” And she waited until everyone looked ready. “Now,” said the teacher, “We are going to make a dish.” “Good!” thought the little boy, He liked to make dishes. And he began to make some That were all shapes and sizes.

But the teacher said “Wait!” “And I will show you how.” And she showed everyone how to make One deep dish. “There,” said the teacher, “Now you may begin.”

The little boy looked at the teacher’s dish; Then he looked at his own. He liked his better than the teacher’s But he did not say this. He just rolled his clay into a big ball again And made a dish like the teacher’s. It was a deep dish.

And pretty soon The little boy learned to wait, And to watch And to make things just like the teacher. And pretty soon He didn’t make things of his own anymore.

Then it happened That the little boy and his family Moved to another house, In another city, And the little boy Had to go to another school.

The teacher said: “Today we are going to make a picture.” “Good!” thought the little boy. And he waited for the teacher To tell what to do. But the teacher didn’t say anything. She just walked around the room.

When she came to the little boy She asked, “Don’t you want to make a picture?” “Yes,” said the little boy. “What are we going to make?” “I don’t know until you make it,” said the teacher. “How shall I make it?” asked the little boy. “Why, anyway you like,” said the teacher. “And any color?” asked the little boy. “Any color,” said the teacher. And he began to make a red flower with a green stem.

~Helen Buckley, The Little Boy

athomeamongtheheather
1 year ago

there's just something inherently holy about a girl vibing alone in her room

athomeamongtheheather
1 year ago

This I found myself thinking in the years that followed, on nights when my wife and I played the violin together, when we cooked together, when we walked in our fields watching the movements of the farm robots, when we sat on the porch watching the airships rise up like fireflies on the horizon over Oklahoma City, this is what the Time Institute never understood: if definitive proof emerges that we’re living in a simulation, the correct response to that news will be So what. A life lived in a simulation is still a life.

- Sea of Tranquility, Emily St. John Mandel


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1 year ago
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athomeamongtheheather
2 years ago
athomeamongtheheather
2 years ago

I don't want a romantic partner I want friends who will go dumpster diving with me, I want neighbors who will knock on my door and ask for butter because they forgot to buy some and it's sunday. I want book shelves in public spaces, food banks and shared tool sheds and community gardens. I want to trade home grown tomatoes for a couple of eggs with my neighbor and I want to bring food over to my friends house when I've cooked too much. I want bicycle only streets and I want people to go on spontaneous walks with. I want people to ask me for help when they need it and I want to be able to ask for help in return. I want community as a safety net. I want people to stop focusing on the vague concept of the one, who will Cure All Isolation and Loneliness. I want every single person to be able to find support and comfort around them, regardless of their relationship status.

athomeamongtheheather
2 years ago
Mount Rainier, Washington By Max Feingold
Mount Rainier, Washington By Max Feingold

Mount Rainier, Washington by Max Feingold

athomeamongtheheather
2 years ago

I have no patience for negativity toward "boomers" anymore.

Almost everybody doing the work to restore ecosystems, grow native plants, and preserve rare species is 50 or older

The people I work with IRL have told me that my presence is encouraging because it means "the younger generation is getting involved with this stuff too." There's really not very many people my age

Who do you think was fighting this fight in the 1970's

athomeamongtheheather
2 years ago

“there are, on this planet alone, something like two million naturally occurring sweet things, some with names so gorgeous as to kick the steel from my knees: agave, persimmon, stick ball, the purple okra I bought for two bucks at the market. Think of that. The long night, the skeleton in the mirror, the man behind me on the bus taking notes, yeah, yeah. But look; my niece is running through a field calling my name. My neighbor sings like an angel and at the end of my block is a basketball court. I remember. My color’s green. I’m spring.”

— Ross Gay, excerpt of “Sorrow Is Not My Name”, in Bringing the Shovel Down

athomeamongtheheather
2 years ago

i think love is when i put myself to bed even when im tired, and i carry myself up the stairs even though my knees ache. and i think love is when i buy myself a coffee when im broke, and i know that ill get myself back later. and i think love is letting myself love someone, even though i am so scared. love is a heavy thing that carries you as much as you carry it.

nothing to add to this you said it all..

athomeamongtheheather
2 years ago

Sunrise

by Louise Glück

This time of year, the window boxes smell of the hills, the thyme and rosemary that grew there, crammed into the narrow spaces between the rocks and, lower down, where there was real dirt, competing with other things, blueberries and currants, the small shrubby trees the bees love— Whatever we ate smelled of the hills, even when there was almost nothing. Or maybe that’s what nothing tastes like, thyme and rosemary.

Maybe, too, that’s what it looks like— beautiful, like the hills, the rocks above the tree line webbed with sweet smelling herbs, the small plants glittering with dew—

It was a big event to climb up there and wait for dawn, seeing what the sun sees as it slides out from behind the rocks, and what you couldn’t see, you imagined;

your eyes would go as far as they could, to the river, say, and your mind would do the rest—

And if you missed a day, there was always the next, and if you missed a year, it didn’t matter, the hills weren’t going anywhere, the thyme and rosemary kept coming back, the sun kept rising, the bushes kept bearing fruit—

The streetlight’s off: that’s dawn here. It’s on: that’s twilight. Either way, no one looks up. Everyone just pushes ahead, and the smell of the past is everywhere, the thyme and rosemary rubbing against your clothes, the smell of too many illusions—

Between them, the hills and sky took up all the room. Whatever was left, that was ours for a while. But eventually the hills will take it back, give it to the animals. And maybe the moon will send the seas there, and where we lived will be a stream or river coiling around the base of the hills, paying the sky the compliment of reflection.

I went back but I didn’t stay. Everyone I cared about was gone, some dead, some disappeared into one of those places that don’t exist, the ones we dreamed about because we saw them from the top of the hills— I had to see if the fields were still shining, the sun telling the same lies about how beautiful the world is when all you need to know of a place is, do people live there. If they do, you know everything.

The hills are terrible, they hide the truth of the past. Green in summer, white when the snow falls.


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athomeamongtheheather
2 years ago

fuck you education system for making it seem like physics is a terrible subject


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athomeamongtheheather
2 years ago
athomeamongtheheather
2 years ago

you've heard of healing your inner child now get ready for me healing my inner undergrad by telling my students I'm proud of them and highlighting their accomplishments at every possible opportunity

athomeamongtheheather
2 years ago
athomeamongtheheather - This single knife in my heart
athomeamongtheheather
2 years ago

it’s time we start oppressing ppl that use the word “hubby”

athomeamongtheheather
2 years ago
Now This Is Funny

Now this is funny

athomeamongtheheather
2 years ago
December……
December……
December……
December……

december……

athomeamongtheheather
2 years ago
an illustration of two cats, one green, one blue, sleeping in bed together. they have a brightly coloured patchwork blanket over them. they are dreaming of the same image, which is smaller but exact same scenario as the one they are in; in that dream scenario, the two cats are also dreaming the same thing, and then the next the same.

a love so nice its echoed in dreams!!

athomeamongtheheather
2 years ago
Here (1989) By Richard Mcguire (raw Magazine)
Here (1989) By Richard Mcguire (raw Magazine)
Here (1989) By Richard Mcguire (raw Magazine)
Here (1989) By Richard Mcguire (raw Magazine)
Here (1989) By Richard Mcguire (raw Magazine)
Here (1989) By Richard Mcguire (raw Magazine)

Here (1989) by Richard mcguire (raw magazine)

athomeamongtheheather
2 years ago

physics girlboss moment of the day scheduled an interview at the country's largest accelerator nothing can stop me now


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athomeamongtheheather
2 years ago

I hate astronomers. On arxiv someone has named their paper "an FBR sent me a DM", where FBR is fast radio burst and DM is dispersion measure.

athomeamongtheheather
2 years ago

not a wave nor a particle but a secret third thing

athomeamongtheheather
2 years ago
Burning Food Is An Inherited Trait
Burning Food Is An Inherited Trait

burning food is an inherited trait

athomeamongtheheather
2 years ago
AUGUST: THE TRUE ENDING OF A YEAR
AUGUST: THE TRUE ENDING OF A YEAR
AUGUST: THE TRUE ENDING OF A YEAR
AUGUST: THE TRUE ENDING OF A YEAR
AUGUST: THE TRUE ENDING OF A YEAR
AUGUST: THE TRUE ENDING OF A YEAR
AUGUST: THE TRUE ENDING OF A YEAR
AUGUST: THE TRUE ENDING OF A YEAR
AUGUST: THE TRUE ENDING OF A YEAR
AUGUST: THE TRUE ENDING OF A YEAR
AUGUST: THE TRUE ENDING OF A YEAR
AUGUST: THE TRUE ENDING OF A YEAR
AUGUST: THE TRUE ENDING OF A YEAR
AUGUST: THE TRUE ENDING OF A YEAR

AUGUST: THE TRUE ENDING OF A YEAR

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