I Got Into A Fight At School.

I got into a fight at school.

The other girl through the first punch.

But it made me realise that school's too much

For me to handle.

I just can't seem to take

When I make calmness break

In someonelse...

Or in myself.

Last week-

I think-

I had a dream

Where I was in love

And happy

And we were content

And calm...

In my head:

There was still calamity,

So I thanked you

For sailing in my storm with me.

Because I know

Some will still be angry

When I go back-

Just as when I leave

(again)

They can't forgive me

For last year...

For just-

Disappearing

From them.

I plan to tell them

This time-

Give my reasons-

And explain

That school

Is seeming

Like an unbearable strain

And I need a break

And a little concentration

Combined with motivation

To keep going.

But last night

...

No dreams.

Just the one nightmare

As my comfort and my company.

But because of it

I woke of lonely

And still felt empty

For a couple hours 'til

I remembered

That they(and you)

Were angry

At me

For leaving.

And I felt queasy

Even now, this evening.

And I know

That is was true, though.

But it scared me anyway

That she

Had wanted revenge

For what- I couldn't say,

After all: /she/ tried to punch /me/

I'd just wanted her to stop.

...

I guess I'll never really

Feel like I'm enough.

...

Any way, I remember

That in my dream

Everybody knew each other-

And all of you hate(d) me.

I guess dreams /do/ just mirror reality...

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