chaoticnightmarekitty

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Vent art

touch-starvation needs to be written with emphasis on the starving part. you are hungry to be touched. so hungry that even the very taste of it makes you nauseous. it has been long since anything has ever touched you, ever fed you - that your body has grown more used to that gnawing emptiness more than anything else. it's better for you to be held, to eat but it makes you sick to try. you know

I can’t take it anymore I can’t take it anymore I can’t take it anymore I can’t take it anymore I can’t take it anymore I can’t take it anymore I can’t take it anymore I can’t take it anymore I csnttakrotanymirs I can’t take it anymore I can’t take it anymore I snt take it anymore I can’t take it snymore (I say as I proceed to take it)

just wanted to let you know that if you post chubby / plus size / fat people on your ed blog and degrade them to make yourself feel better, you're an absolute piece of shit and I wish you mass hair loss

jiraiblr in a nutshell

(Sound on.) We’re all doomed.

Me :>

"I just wanna go home."

I say to myself while laying in my bed. at home.

Any other landmines/jirais out there with NO anons, NO huge following, NO reason to wake up every day- I mean, what?

"Stop isolating yourself at any minor thing"

NO! TOMATOES 🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅

how it feels to spam my mutuals

there’s 10 pounds of glitter in my brain ( ^ω^ )

(ignore the blood pouring out idk why that’s there)

Someone please tell me this isn’t an original experience.. do you ever get so insanely infatuated with someone (who you don’t necessarily know super well/like that much) that you crave validation from this person to the point that if they look at you wrong or say one wrong thing you convince yourself they hate you and start deeply hating them and any little thing they say can send you into a mental breakdown ?? No just me?? Ok.

daily affirmations

- I will own a house and decorate it just like I've been dreaming of for years

- I WILL OWN A HOUSE

- my house will have the cutest decor ever

- I will have the most peaceful house of all time

- house

Honestly my only purpose is spending money and being cute ^_^ I won't even be a good housewife... Just internet princess (⁠｡⁠ŏ⁠﹏⁠ŏ⁠)

A possessive & obsessive lover with a soft spot for me when?? WHEN

Be possessive over me. I like being reminded that I belong to you, that I’m yours alone.

I love when someone is drawing themselves with me

Thats so sweet and it makes me feel like I'm not js a npc in that person's life

I wish people would do that more often

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۫ ﹙🥞🎀🌈﹚魔法少女まどか☆マギカ﹙🥞🎀🌈﹚

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NOTES CHALLANGE BUT AS A BABY KOGAL/ROKKU GAL AND FORMER LIFESTYLE JIRAI

TW: MENTIONS OF SH AND M@STURBATION

100 Notes - I'll throw away my blades (i dont sh anymore)

500 Notes - I'll practice the eye makeup some more

1000 Notes - I'll try to fix my M@sturbating addiction

2000 Notes - I'll get more clothes

2500 Notes - i'll get my nails done

3000 Notes - I'll loose some weight, atleast 20 kg max

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Pink = complete

Orange = In progress

Black = Not done

JIRAIS listen, i MIGHT be leaving the community since i have been getting better like alot better, the scars that once dappled my body are gone, the cigrattes all i have thrown away, the blades are left forgotten in my jewelry box. I became more social and likeable, started to look at my body with love instead of disgust. Started eating healthy and going out. And i have been getting into the gyaru culture. Knowing that i am finally starting to feel like myself makes me wanna tear up, im happy

i’m so jealous of passionate ppl.

like, there’s smth u wanna achieve in life? you don’t just feel as if you’re wasting away your time, as if you’re a dull background character meant to make the talented ones shine even brighter?

bc i wish i had that. i wish i had a goal that i wanted to strive towards. i wish that there was smth that genuinely interested me, rather than just seeing it as a good pastime. i wish that i didn’t feel the need to go to extreme lengths just to feel like an adequate person, rather than just being a prop meant to fill in the background.

How I feel going to another app (My entire personality changes)