I'm Aware My Art Isn't Very Popular Or Anything Lol But Please Pick Which Kid You'd Want To See Me Draw

that one saying " to be loved is to be changed " but its akutagawa from the beginning of the manga slowly evolving to become way softer and loving and turning into what we saw in the last chapter, i love how the artstyle also changed, he looks so beautiful atsushi must be really jn love with him

Little guy 🧡

what if Atsushi kept the coat. What if after all of this he tries to hand it to Akutagawa, who just swats it away and hugs Atsushi tight. What THEN

Akutgawa watching Atsushi “find” his missing shoes after moving them to a more obvious spot for the 80th time that morning: My detective ❤️🥰

Atsushi, smiling really bashfully:

Dazai, lazing on their couch, slept on the balcony bc he lost his dorm key and Kunikida refused to let him back in: Gross. Fucking disgusting. I was expecting some interesting shit not this bs wtf.

Atsushi: WHAT THE FUCK-

IMAGINING AKUTAGAWA WITH ATTACHMENT ISSUES AFTER ATSUSHI DIED IN FRONT OF HIM (or vice versa)

God I know they suck at actually communicating their feelings with words and instead die for each other, but I can't get the possibility of Akutagawa being majorly effected by Atsushi's death enough to where he can't bear to leave Atsushi alone, out of my head

(side note: I think Akutagawa should join the Agency. We already know from beast he'd make a pretty decent detective)

I know Akutagawa's terrified of losing Atsushi. And Atsushi had to die to save him for him to even realize that 🙏 Asagiri you wizard I love how you write Sskk's relationship

But like, just imagine an Akutagawa trailing Atsushi around like a lost dog (one could almost say...a stray dog) on his days off or Akutagawa constantly checks up on him and calls him or just like small little, caring things like that. Akutagawa with the realization of how much Atsushi means to him

Also, speaking of sskk clinginess; sskk reunion

Asagiri is most likely going to do what none of us expects with however he approaches the sskk reunion, but oh my goodness every new chapter that drops changes my ideas for how it'll unfold

I wonder if they'll talk. If they'll hug. They should probably hug. And talk. They really need to talk atp

And you know they're going to argue. But not a real argument, the kind of sskk argument that they only do to talk about their actual problems

Ohhhh there's just so many layers to sskk and I don't know if I can pluck them all apart. And right now I'm really just wondering about the what ifs of their changed relationship

(I'm absolutely PINING for a chance of Atsushi asking "do you hate me?" which makes Akutagawa have to answer with his current/future character growth)

Asagiri please I'm begging you I NEED a scene where sskk talk about each other's trauma and trace each other's scars

Like just imagine Atsushi gently touching the scar on Akutagawa's neck with tears in his eyes as they talk about their pasts IT WOULD BE THE THERAPY I NEED

I HAVE AN ACRYLIC STAND I BOUGHT AT COMIC CON OF A SSKK ART LIKE THIS OML 😭

Dazai did this.

I hope the person who made the post “Oda was holding Dazai's face in his last moment so that his ability could nullify his own and wouldn't have had to go through his dead twice” knows the thought haunts me every day

Specifically talking about this panel, okay one, I really hope Bones doesn't fuck this whole scene up. Atsushi better "die" as graceful as hell, they messed up so badly with Akutagawa's death 😭

But also I'm excited to see what the eventual season six brings with this scene (although season six is like more than a year away) because hearing this scene and watching it move is going to amaze me all over again

Also, Akutagawa has said that he doesn't hate Atsushi (source: 55 Minutes), and then there's this. The gayest cherry on top in existence and I love it. He's worried and concerned about Atsushi, he's *desperate*

This panel shows how Akutagawa truly is on the inside. He's not a vampire, he's not a killer, he's not a knight at this moment. He's simply Akutagawa Ryuunosuke and he's watching the boy he loves die for him. He's being hit with all of his emotions and memories at once while making a new memory; one that will live with him forever even if Atsushi comes back

It's just

So insane to see Akutagawa like this for once

God this chapter is amazing

I'm screaming crying and throwing up for the millionth time since 121.5 dropped because Akutagawa *cares* about Atsushi. Atsushi, the person who sees him for who he is, the person who understands him without words, the person who makes him feel like he's worth something. He cares about him.