I Can’t Help But Get Really Insecure At Times About My Art. I See All Of This Beautiful Artwork On

I can’t help but get really insecure at times about my art. I see all of this beautiful artwork on tumblr or in comics, things that I strive to be like, and what I want to do for the rest of my life. But then I keep looking at my art… seeing how it’s nothing like how I want it to be, even when I take classes and lessons, nothing changes… and I can’t help but wonder… if I’m not good enough for myself… will I ever be good enough for the real world?

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6 months ago

Lamb

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5 months ago

I had a really, REALLY weird dream about The Amazing Digital Circus last night!! ( @gooseworx you wanna weigh in on this?)

I have had a lot of wierd dreams but I’m usually in all of them as the main protagonist in first person view, but this is the first time that it felt like I was watching an actual episode of a series.

The cast was on some adventure and the main npc villain was actually someone who used to be at the circus, but abstracted and is now used as an antagonist npc (I think her name was Victoria? She’s themed as some giant aquatic monster with a bunch of starfish and kelp on her, think of like the Big Daddies from Bioshock, but with more sea life on her, and you could see her scarred up face).

Pomni gets paired with Jax throughout the episode and Jax FINALLY gets some character development instead of just being some kids cartoon bully with no background or character other than just annoying & torturing people. The entire cast is supposed to defeat Victoria but Pomni being the hero that she is, tries reaching out and helping her, despite Jax constantly trying to mess this up. Jax Finally gets the character development I was talking about and is still a jerk but is now more like Buford levels of jerk (still mean, but you can tell he cares and he’s a bully friend that you would invite over for a game of baseball) instead of being like Denzel Crocker (Fairly Odd Parents) or Brad (Kick Buttowski) levels of bully.

One thing I forgot to mention is that in the adventures, Caine gave the characters the ability to fuse together to become more powerful and fight through. At first, Jax simply just uses Pomni to get stronger and the fusion they start out with is like; INCREDIBLY toxic! Think of it like from Steven Universe, with Lapis and Jasper becoming Malachite and showcasing a toxic and abusive relationship. (As Garnet said; “They’re a bad match for each other”) But as time goes on, Jax starts to see how fast Pomni’s already non existent mental health is deteriorating faster and faster, even when he stops fusing (mostly because he’s annoyed with how Pomni is slowing them down and making the fusion weak with her problems) her problems starts showing on Jax. After the both of them almost abstract because of Jax trying to do something he sees as “fun”, (trapping the rest of the cast in a cave to make them panic) Jax and Pomni have a heart to heart and realize how they need to work together to complete this adventure and get back to the circus. Once Jax finally realizes that, he lets go of the controls a little bit so that Pomni can also take charge. By the end of it, they’ve bonded and their fusion relationship is more like Stevonie with the fusion even changing to show both of them equal amount.

For some reason, Caine absolutely HATES the idea of Victoria coming back to the circus, something about “it’s not up to him” and “against the rules and company policy” several times the cast has to stop him and beg for him to not turn her into confetti like he did with Gummigoo. Caine ends up putting the cast into a new adventure and sets them up with an impossible task. They all have to agree on something or team up together to let Victoria stay.

The cast is transported to some falling apart school that is floating in the middle of space with some dim sun in the center, yet it’s freezing cold. The way I can describe the school is like Elmore Junior high (from amazing world of gumball) I think I even saw some of the gumball characters here and there? But the students and teachers were more like demonic zombies…

The cast is split up and only Pomni and Kinger are the only ones who believe that Victoria should get a second chance at the circus, after all, she was human just like them. Even Ragatha doesn’t want to know what might happen when they bring Victoria back (as she’s been playing the villain for so long she doesn’t know how be a supporting role) not to mention for as long as any of them have been there, they’ve never seen Caine act so hateful towards any of the npcs or avatars. But when Jax is struck with an ultimatum, and chooses to save Pomni and the cast over himself, the rest of the cast says Victoria’s name and they are all transported back to the circus with Victoria.

Victoria’s look has changed almost entirely. I’ll do my best to describe it… she had blue skin now, blonde hair in a high bun, but she looked very abstracted (not tadc abstract! Like an abstract painting) very blocky, and chunky, and she only had one eye now and it was on her right side of her face, which still looked scarred, but no where near as bad as before.

The dream ended with the cast showing her around, and telling her to take it easy as she’s the first person to not only come back from being abstracted, but also the first so-called “npc” to come back to the circus. Caine was floating near by still glaring at Victoria like she was a piece of filth that shouldn’t be there, while bubble is annoying him. Before I wake up Pomni and Jax are wondering if all abstracted humans became npcs or if this was just something new that Caine tried like with Gummigoo ai and making something actually scary for zooble like before.

That’s when I woke up. I’ll tell you that had to be the weirdest dream I’ve had in a long while. @gooseworx you wanna say anything about this???


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3 years ago
I Played Legends Of Arceus The Other Day And Caught A Shiny Teddiursa, And I Was Reminded Of Molly’s

I played legends of Arceus the other day and caught a shiny Teddiursa, and I was reminded of Molly’s love of bears! So of course I absolutely HAD to do this! And I love how this turned out! Our little bear cub is so adorable with these little guys! I may draw the others with Pokémon as well, so if you guys have any ideas of what they should be, please let me know! 😊

I still can’t get over how cute this is!


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3 years ago

Ummm… am I reading this right?! Almost 30 likes?!?! What?!?! That’s the most likes I’ve gotten since I started this ask blog! Thank you all so much I’m so glad you love this almost as much as I do! Love you all so much and thank you! 🙏😊💕

P.S who is your favorite? Sundrop or Moondrop? I, personally, have always been a night gal so I’m gonna have to go with Moon, but I also love Sun’s personality!

What If… Lelu Met Sundrop And Moondrop?
What If… Lelu Met Sundrop And Moondrop?

What if… Lelu met Sundrop and Moondrop?

I had so much fun with Moondrop! He’s one of my favorites in security breach! 💕

And this turned out so CUTE!!! 🥰❤️😍❤️

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What If… Lelu Met Sundrop And Moondrop?
What If… Lelu Met Sundrop And Moondrop?
6 months ago

I’m really curious about something like this. Would you choose where you are now, especially since you don’t really know this “true love” of yours like you know your current partner, and that wouldn’t be fair to them. Or are you the type to not question faith and go with this “true love”?

My friends and I would play this game back in middle school and we would choose to win the lottery or true love, one of my friends already had a partner and someone else asked; but what if when you pick true love it’s not them? I think about that moment a lot (mostly because it sounds like it would make a good fairytale spin off story)


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3 years ago
Lola

Lola

Age: 19

Birthday: July 29th at 6 am

Likes: Quiet, peacefulness, flowers, feeling peoples different skin textures, playing the kalimba, Shgaraki

Dislikes: People talking about her father, loud noises,, violence, bullies, her old school, abusers, Endeavor, herself

Bilingual in Spanish, English, and Japanese

Quirk: Corpse flower

Her hair is almost as long as rapunzel’s and anyone that touches her by the hair with their bare skin will almost immediately have a heart attack or seizure, and die. She is also able to disintegrate anything her hair touches, almost exactly like Shiggy’s quirk.

The rose on top of her head is actually a part of her body and every time she kills someone or loses control of her emotions, it emits a rotting flesh smell just like a real corpse flower. It also symbolizes what she feels

When she’s sick or unwell, the rose starts to wilt. 🥀

Rotting flesh= angry/sad

Lavender= scared, or trying to relax or calm down

Fresh Roses= Happy

Breaks down in tears when someone is killed from her quirk.

Sometimes when she has mental breakdowns, the hair has a mind of it’s own and extends and/or unravels itself to destroy or disintegrate everything around her. The LOV made a special room for her to lock herself in so she doesn’t kill everyone at the base.

She snuck into the sports festival, and after hearin what Endeavor shouted at his son when he used his fire, she knew almost instantly what must be going on behind the scenes… after all… her father was almost no different.

Her father and mother were both pro heroes. But once Lola’s quirk manifested, she accidentally killed her mother, and her father abandoned her. After years of being bounced around and abused in the foster system, she saw how the people in the LOV almost took out Endeavor with the nomu, she wanted to join… thinking people are oh so great when really they’re nothing but wolves in sheeps clothing (or I guess in this case; Villains Wearing A Hero’s Cape) don’t deserve the fame and glory they get, when they themselves do villainous deeds that most of the time produce what society labels as “Villains”

That, and… she doesn’t think there’s anything else for her to do with the kind of quirk she’s burdened with.

Everyone at the LOV was surprised when this young girl presented herself as a person who wants to join the most wanted terrorist group in Japan. The boys even placed bets on how long it would take her to leave.

Shigaraki refused at first, thinking someone as sensitive, weak, and fragile as her, would last a day in the LOV

Twice and Toga thought that she was cute, and wanted her to stay.

Shigaraki saw way too much of himself in Lola and after 48 hours of not being able to get her out of his head; he finally let her join.

Lola
Lola
Lola

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3 years ago
Do You Ever Get The Feeling That Someone Is Watching You?

Do you ever get the feeling that someone is watching you?

I loved watching jacksepticeye scream in his play through of “The closing shift” and I’ve always loved the idea of being watched and having an unhealthy obsession with someone else. It keeps you on your toes as you read or watch stories about them because you never really know what is going to happen next


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3 years ago
Hey It Has Been A Few Days Since I Last Posted. Child Prison Aka School Has Been Keeping Me Busy From

Hey it has been a few days since I last posted. Child prison aka School has been keeping me busy from the moment I wake up to late at night. And this has been my therapy.

So anyways, meet my OC, Momo. I’ve absolutely love fnaf ever since my older brother showed me markiplier’s first ever fnaf episode when the first fnaf game came out. And Ballora has always been one of my favorites, because she reminded me of a dream I had when I was younger. Before I discovered my love of writing stories and drawing, in elementary I loved ballerinas! I remember buying a ballerina costume for Halloween one year and wearing it year round until I outgrew it, and I remembered watching the ballerina’s dance on the TV and attempting to awkwardly copy the ballerinas on the screen. I never got any ballet lessons. But after I graduated from elementary school, I had surgery on my spine, but after I recovered I wasn’t as flexible as I was when I was little. So after I kept failing, I eventually just forgot about it. But once sister location came out, Ballora became my instant favorite, and she reminded me of what I loved doing when I was little.

Gosh dang it! How many times am I gonna accidentally hit post?! 🤣

Anyways! Sorry! I get off topic sometimes 😅. Back to my character! This is Momo. And unlike all of the other people, following the lore… I am not a normal person! So I am gonna make this based off of my au! Momo, is the soul who possesses Ballora. Things are different in this au, almost every single animatronic has a soul of a dead child inside. It’s either that, or because the object has suffered a lot in it’s existence. (Aka, the current agony theory about remnant).

I am so proud of this! This is probably one of my best works yet!

Momo was originally just some Ballerina ghost oc of mine I had to haunt some theater where her boss/toxic and possessive boyfriend murdered her. But soon enough, I got really attached to her. I had so much fun with this and I may even make an ask comic for my au! So, Go ahead and swarm me with asks about my fnaf au!


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3 years ago
📦 Ask Box Is Now Opened 📦

📦 Ask Box is now Opened 📦

So, you all know about that “my friend Lisa” story? If not… then, stop what you’re doing and go look it up online or on YouTube! Anyways… other than Lisa, the three characters are mine. This is a drawing from a little girl named Lelu. Her real name is Lisa Lucy Hailey, but her sister Autumn called her Lelu and now she doesn’t want to be called anything but. Autumn is 19 and takes care of her sister all by herself, because of her parents will, and she’s not scared of her little sister like many other people are. Lelu is a medium, meaning she can see ghosts and talk to dead people. But Lelu is only 4 and hasn’t been introduced to life and death yet. Lisa and She (yes her name is She) don’t want Lelu to be anything other than her happy cheerful self, so they tell her that the people they had killed, are just sleeping and to leave them alone because it’s rude to disturb people while they sleep. Autumn knows that Lisa killed her father, but she’s fine with that because her father was abusive and cruel to her, her sister, and her mother. And yes… you heard me correctly, that shadow lady with 4 arms is named She. She was Lelu’s monster in her closet or under her bed. She mostly just sat there and watched Lelu while Lelu would just babble away with her at night. She didn’t talk much, but when Lisa went away for a while, She got stuck with babysitting Lelu. Lelu gave her some chocolate pudding and she started to get attached to her.

I love these four so much! Especially Lelu, she’s that little cinnamon roll as my classmates call her. So please send those ask in and Lelu and the others will answer!

Ask’ em anything!


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2 years ago
Merry Christmas Everyone

Merry Christmas everyone

This is the wandering mother story my grandfather used to tell me before he passed away


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So this is where I’m just going to draw and post my stories, drawings, and things that I think are cool.They aren’t going to be good, but I’m basically self taught when it comes to learning how to do digital art.I hope you all enjoy what I have to share and have a day full of magic 💕☺️💕She/herPansexual💖💛💙

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