Playing Rebirth Makes Me Feel SO BAD For Reeve/cait Sith. He Tries SO HARD To Convince AVALANCHE That

doing homework while video game slots run in the background >>>

cid highwind having tea parties with marlene, denzel, yuffie, and shelke, on the demands that he gets to make the tea, and gets to sit in a comfortable chair. he is NOT sitting on one of those little kid stools or drinking shit tea.

thinking about "say goodnight, pippilly...!" followed by the losing music.

recently discovered i am in a minority which is that reeve tuesti is genuinely one of my favorite final fantasy characters. why doesn't anyone like reeve 😭 where is my reeve content 😭

darkstar/dark nation i want to know your gender.

why doesn't anyone gender you ever????? not in the original (although tbf dark dies RIGHT AWAY in og). not in remake and rebirth.

PLEASE TELL ME THE GENDER OF YOUR DOG DOOFUS SHINRA. IT MAKES IT HARD TO WRITE ABOUT YOUR DOG AND YOUR RELATIONSHIP TO SAID DOG.

i finished the game and I'M RIGHT! WHERE IS MY DoC FOUND FAMILY CONTENT??? i gotta do it myself (i was doing it already but was i nervous shelke was gonna die so i left her out just in case but she DOESN'T!)

started dirge of cerberus, here's my main takeaway so far:

reeve, cid, and vincent have two daughters, yuffie and shelke.

three dads, two daughters.

am i close 🤨

when cid returns with the enterprise to save everyone, he doesn't say a word to kain. he mostly talked to rosa and cecil, but he says *something* to rydia, addressing her presence. he says absolutely nothing to kain.

coincidence or not, cid sacrifices himself not a moment later with that bomb. coincidence or not, cid was their guardian- a consistent prescence in all three of the knight's lives. to avoid addressing kain at all? as if kain hadn't provided them with valuable information of the underworld at all, as if he hadn't shown his sorrow. as if kain hadn't repented enough for cid.

personally, i think that's part of why his mental barriers were weakened, and he couldn't repluse the "mind control" later on.

sometimes i think about how similar celes from ffvi and sephiroth from ffvii are. both of them were genetically engineered people with the intent of their creation to help take over the world.

but celes' "father" was kind, and she was younger, had more hope, and took the chance to escape from the gestahlian empire. she rebelled, was locked up, and immediately was rescued by locke. she also knew from her birth that she was different, created with this ability to manipulate magic that had faded from the human race.

sephiroth's father on the other hand was not so kind. keeping him in the lab, putting him on the frontlines of a war as a teen, and building up his cautionary, defensive personality. encouraging him to self-isolate, encouraging him to be. alone. when shit hit the fan, sephiroth's hope of a loving mother, a happy family, an escape? it was gone. to learn he wasn't exactly human, while his friends he'd been told not to make died left and right? it's easy to see why they took different turns.

but still- celes' escape from her past tells me that in another timeline, sephiroth could've made it out too.

rebirth hard mode update:

aw man. everyone was right. rufus stinks. i forgot he was IMMUNE TO ELEMENTAL DAMAGE?? HOW??

plus, i'm going on vacation, and i will not get another opportunity to try again until i get back. he's just gonna haunt me for a week. i'm gonna watch so many videos about hard mode rufus. i'm gonna get him. i am not going to pysche myself out of fighting him. i am gonna get him. he's gonna say "and yet here. you. are." in that stupid tone that i like so much when he summons darkstar. and i'll blow him up.

having a flare up = forcing it on my blorbos of the month

zack revival after meteorfall au where he has chronic pain and cloud takes care of him on his hard days which is hard for zack because he's always been the one taking care of everyone around him. he was helping aerith with her flower wagons, he was trying to help angeal and sephiroth and genesis stay sane, hell he was trying to help cloud with his motion sickness!! and now his body revolts and makes him sore and exhausted for days on end.

cloud tries to convince him he really doesn't mind takin' care of him, that he loves him, but it's hard for him to take, y'know? it's hard to accept help when it feels like accepting defeat, and it's even harder to accept help when you don't exactly know what's goin' on.

ugh i'm so tired of this you guys