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To those who can't watch horror shows

Guys we finally got what we wanted and we're not talking about it enough

I'm seeing people talk about dream female Only Friends cast and now I cannot stop thinking about my perfect Ray and Sand: Pat Chayanit and Fah Yongwaree.

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I just know Pat can do both Ray's annoying, rich boy vibes and also all the emotional nuance and depth.

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And I'm picturing Fah in a look similar to Jean from The Warp Effect, I think she would make a perfect Sand.

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We already know they work well together and have a nice chemistry.

And I know they can also pull off the heartwrenching and emotional scenes.

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I am craving something that will consume my soul.

Preferably something gay and produced in an Asian country

I need gmmtv to release something gay and dramatic STAT cuz im having a withdrawal rn please please give me some new gays

rooftop kisses will be the end of me

A lot of people in the fandom were mad at Sand for not drawing the line right away and sorta slumbering through Boeing's entire slut agenda but folks

As someone who identifies so strongly with Sand as a character I was happy to see Ray step up and claim him so shamelessly, so confidently. Because saviors also need saving sometimes, and this was the reassurance Sand needed. This was Ray proving he was all in and not only for his own sake. Sure Sand should have established boundaries right away but damn it give him a break. It was meh morally but it was okay, it was understandable. He's got issues of his own, he is not there just to serve Ray's arc

Ray is like "Oh yeah my boyfriend is still in love with his ex" after watching Sand go into complete autopilot and giving the most dead fish kiss to Boeing

Like bro he kissed you right after that and it was like he was deprived of oxygen and you were his oxygen mask

yall we as a fandom are losing our shit

do you think we'll get gmmtv to reconsider their implicit veto on gl shows if we think hard enough

Let's try to manifest a good gl

I'm seeing people talk about dream female Only Friends cast and now I cannot stop thinking about my perfect Ray and Sand: Pat Chayanit and Fah Yongwaree.

(x)(x)

I just know Pat can do both Ray's annoying, rich boy vibes and also all the emotional nuance and depth.

(x)(x)

And I'm picturing Fah in a look similar to Jean from The Warp Effect, I think she would make a perfect Sand.

(x)(x)

We already know they work well together and have a nice chemistry.

And I know they can also pull off the heartwrenching and emotional scenes.

(x)(x)

Thank you to Sand for being my role model

He's someone I relate to very much and I see so much of my romantic tendencies in him

Only he does draw boundaries. He does have self-respect. He refuses to give up his integrity

Thank you so much maybe I do have a chance at a fulfilling relationship

I am not ready for anyone's opinions honestly, but I just have to say this: as someone who has an alcoholic sibling, there is only so much you can do to stop an addict.

I mean, the friend group is shitty. I don't see the love or loyalty one expects from a friend group. Frankly, I don't think any of them have ever taken Ray's addiction seriously, but we do not know if they ever tried to help.

At some point you become exhausted. At some point, you realize the person you care about will not quit if they don't want to.

And Ray does have agency. He did not have to bring drugs to the party. His dellusions explain his behavior but do not justify it.

I'm very angry with Ray this week I'm sorry. This show is hitting too close to home

Next week's preview makes next week worth living

Only I hate the fact that Sand is the one confessing. I hate it. He deserves to be confessed to. He deserves to be chased after. Ray needs to fucking repent because he's fucked up so many times and Sand needs to be less forgiving

I am so normal about Sand it's not like I relate to him or anything

Many people in the fandom are convinced that SandRay won't get a happy ending because it's 'not a bl' and it's 'realistic'. First of all, even I, the resident hopeless romantic, understand that realism is not the same as pessimism. Second of all, it's P'Jojo we're talking about. He loves giving people happy endings after a couple of tragic twists and time jumps. Just think about Bad Buddy or Never Let Me Go and their endings. I am a SandRay-is-endgame truther, because of the reasons listed above and because I will bawl my eyes out in the case they don't end up together.

That's why I'm so sensitive about Sand. I relate to him so much it hurts. He's a person who has learned that there's no point in expecting anything from people. He doesn't see himself as anyone special, as someone who can be "the one". He takes responsibility for his feelings and doesn't blame anyone for being hurt. But he feels so,so much. He cares more than he can take and more than others can appreciate. He's doomed to get hurt and I am too.

And that is absolutely tragic

You know what absolutely kills me about this? Sand doesn't even look surprised. He isn't teary or wide-eyed. It's a look of pure disappointment. The kind that says he knew this would happen from the start, and he's utterly powerless to stop it.

While seeing Sand breaking down in tears would have been devastating, there's something very achy about this reaction. It's hard to put into words.

Today is the day

The day a new episode of only friends comes out

The only thing that kept me afloat for the entire week

If I don't get some resolution to SandRay's fight I will drown my sorrows in soju

Actually everything on tumblr is about Ray and Sand from only friends

I love characters that think they can't allow themselves to love or be loved

just to have someone stride into their life to turn that concept upside down

GMMTV really decided to produce a show which on the surface level is about messy queers fucking the brains out of each other but on the deeper level is really about the power dynamics in queer relationships and how important having control is for so many people

it's the way Top is used to having the upper hand, but in his new relationship it's Mew who has control

it's the way Sand is so afraid of losing control over his own emotions in his relationship with Ray, but he's bound to catch feelings, we all know it

it's the way Boston doesn't get attached to anyone but loses control in his pursuit of Top

it's all about who's got the power, who protected their heart the best

okay but this LOOK

the look after Ray asked Sand if he found him attractive

First I applaud you for mastering the "trying to remain calm and collected while being horny" face

I can't believe I didn't pick up on it in the first episode but Mew is such a proficient manipulator for someone so young and inexperienced. He likes having control, and I'm surprised Top is actually sticking around. He must be so sure of himself his confidence makes him blind to Mew's tricks. Either that or it makes the challenge more interesting and the conquest more gratifying for him, so he's just waiting to take the trophy home.

I am Mew and Mew is me

Seriously, the guy:

1. Doesn't want a one-night stand because he knows he'll fall hard

2. Apologises to the guy he didn't hook up with because you know he got his hopes up and all

3. Brings said guy to a bookshop the next day and talks about his love for reading

4. Is extremely cute and wears glasses

Gmmtv I am gonna sue you for identity theft because what is this

people who discover gay soap operas never go back to western media

my silly little gay shows satisfy my need for queer stories with low stakes zero deaths and a lot of fucking

gmmtv the sponsor of my daily fix of gayness

the fact that RWRB came out the same week on only friends is so fuckin funny to me because people who only watch western media are really so desperate for queer content that ive seen people waxing poetic about so many (non) things meanwhile i'm out here SCREAMING at the top of my lungs because Mark Pakin violated privacy laws to put a sexy selfie onto a customer's phone and WON

When your gay uncle is homophobic

“We’re not like parents in tv dramas”

Right, more like parents in Shakesperian tragedies

I can only agree

Nanon’s acting in this scene was breathtaking.

The subtlety and nuanced approach he took to containing Pran’s sorrow and tears was incredible. He sustained Pran’s struggle to keep from crying and maintained his composure until the perfect moment.

The audience could see Pran struggling but Pat couldn’t and that was so believable. The tears are waiting to tumble from Pran’s eyes were there but were small enough for Pat to not notice, something that is amazing to see as a viewer.

There are so many layers to his performance as Pran, whether it’s his approach to the lines, the micro mannerisms and gestures he uses to show the audience how Pran is actually feeling.

This scene made the audience share in Pran’s pain, whether you wanted to or not. It wasn’t a question of feeling what Pran was feeling. Nanons performance immersed you in it and reached beyond the confines of the screen.

me: *crying*

friend: what’s going on? why are you crying?

me: *gestures vaguely towards thailand* 

“I didn’t know you had a romantic side…”

The answer was as simple as that. Mork was incapable of threatening this friendship the more they spend time together.

The more they spend time together, the more fearful he was of his feelings, knowing well one wrong move would pull Pi several steps back that he took his time taking.

Especially after knowing how hard it was for the latter to trust people. They had a rough start all because he couldn't talk in truths. He still wasn't when he told Pi he was a friend every time looking at those round eyes and soft cheeks.

He couldn't put what they had at risk for something he wasn't sure about. 

And that was the reason precisely why he pushed every thought of leaning closer when they were only inches apart. Because no matter how close he wanted to lean in, he had to step away before things get out of hand.

Sometimes it felt so pointless, as if the possibility of them getting together was a fading light at the end of a tunnel.

Some mornings he woke up thinking all about those 'What If's' he couldn't answer himself. 

Other time there was a sudden urge to shove all his secrets inside a box and lock them away for good because at this point, being friends was way better than loosing Pi in any sort of way.

When he could feel Pi's warmth and wanted nothing but wrap his arms around the latter, forming a shield to hide him away from this cruel world.

Or the way his intrusive thoughs won over his self control on his weak days as his traitrous hands would make their way to fix that one strand of hair falling over Pi's forehead just right to poke him in the eyes.

They way his figures twitched to reach out and wipe the corner of his mouth when he messily ate something.

And these little feeling would erupt every time he saw Pi doing something as trivial as taking food to his table. Or simply sitting side by side studying. Or replying to his text. Talking about his shitty day.

To the point it would travel all through his body like crackling electricity, make his fingertips tingle until he had to remove himself from close proximity of Pi.

Keep his thoughts at bay, in the dark, whenever he felt words flowing inside his brain.

Swallowing bits of the acidic feeling when he would slip up and reveal the truth.

How could he so obvious and Pi be so oblivious.

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A bit angsty.

A bit of slow burn

We all love these little guilty pleasures.

My Book-'Levitating Towards You' on Ao3, more refined and edited.

A bit angsty tags_

#One-sided enemies to friends to lovers

#Slow building romance

#Emotional hurt

#A bit depressing

#Dark thoughts happen at some point

#Feelings denial

#Triggering subjects

#Past traumas

#Unhealthy coping mechanism

#Mild mention of bullying

But it also has_

#Humor

#Satire

#Fluff

#Sarcasm

#Happy ending

#Healthy relationship building

#Enemies to Friends to Lovers

#Stupid cheesy flirting

#Eventual stupid but iconic confessions

#Developing feelings

#Mild sexual content

#Sloppy make out

#Drunk shenanigans and confessions

#Declaration of love

#Domestic shit happens out of nowhere

#We have side couples? Maybe

#Mentions of other Bl series in between as other characters make cameos!!!

#Everyone is gay- Yuppie!

My writing isn't the greatest but I try.

Please consider reading it.

I really need the motivation.

'Do we really know the truth behind someone's lies? Is it fair to lie to someone you care about because of your own fears?'

"Do we really know how to differentiate between Romantic and Platonic Love? Should we? Could we?"

'Is it alright to want someone who looks so far, out of reach?'

So many question. So many answers....

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