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my biological mother is a pathological liar - i became a pathological liar as a defense mechanism growing up in my house with my narcissistic adopted stepmother; now i just make up creative stories when someone i dont know makes me uncomfortable. i went to therapy, and learned some coping mechanisms so that its not something i do automatically anymore - but when i choose to lie no one can ever really tell the difference.
i will never lie to my partner or my true friends, i will absolutely lie to my family and the government, and honestly??
lying is also fucking funny dude like yes i said this no i didnt mean it wtf does it matter?? i just came up with that shit on the spot and u BELIEVED me?? sometimes its a little too easy.
can we talk about autistics who are compulsive/pathological liars
meltdown diaries #1
why is finding friends so hard i don't understand. I don't think I've had a friend irl or even really talked to someone my age in 2 years. I dont know what's so wrong with me. I'm 17, I'm supposed to have sorted this out by now. I don't know how to fix myself, I swear I've grown in these two years. don't know if it's my autism again but i just need friends. I like friends. I like talking. I have autistic peers at college and they have friends, but they all have their own groups and I feel like I don't fit. i just need something, someone. theres no clubs where I live so I don't even know where to find friends. the only thing I have is work college and my bed, and I can't go on like this. I just need the world to be gentle, just for once. I just want to laugh with someone who isn't my 15 year old sister who has to talk to me because we live in the same house. Im just tired, so tired. feel like I'll be alone forever, and I swear I'm a better person. I'm just shy. I wish I was normal, but it's always been this way, and it always will