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Pokes you. Baps you with my paw
I swear I disappear for months on end because life is getting the better of me and I come here on a distinct whim to get BAPPED within SECONDS OH MY GOD
..In any case..
[Lunges forward and nips hand]
How doing
A incredible time to ask this, anon, I say in a not-mad-at-you-albeit-I-am-being-sarcastic-here
I was texting my mother and something she said cut a little too deep than it should have done (about my tone when replying to something she had said). I apologise, explain I have had a shit day
The shit day in question:
- I lost my nana on my birthday last Sunday and got told the day after
- Since then I have been a downright wreck and had to have the week off from volunteering. Today was also no exception. I felt awful the entirety of today, my sertraline is likely running overtime due to this
- My family at home do know that I have struggled with this news, but I don't think they realise how much more it can hurt when you are alone in this situation, isolated from everyone else. There is no community around me to help
- I contemplated calling my mother when I knew she would be awake for support and now that is no longer an option. I just cannot interact with her for a while, I need some space and so I lose a desperately-needed voice of support during all this (she is the only family member I really only speak to)
I have been so close to tears the entire day and this frankly tips it over the edge. I love her so much, I just wish I could speak to her right now
Speaking of chickens, went to a bird place in Cebu recently and found a rooster with the biggest set of naturals ever (he kept running away hence poor photo quality). Thought you would enjoy
He's breasting boobily all over the place, as is his right
So.... Phillipines?
It is humid so bless my eczema to the stars and back.
Also homesickness goes hard here, it feels like such an extreme intensity of both depression and anxiety slammed into one.
Good news is that although my contract says I am to work/volunteer between 8am-5pm, no one is really allowed to do much with how strong the sun is (with some exceptions) until 4pm, so really I get to sleep until 4 which helps me feel less homesick.