Personal Thoughts - Blog Posts

Human beings...Kindly stay away from me...🚨

Wahi mai soch rha kab aayegi koi aisi kanya jisse mai ye dunga ....😌

🕊🌼🐚🌿

Kab ayega woh din, jab mujhe koi ayega aur yeh sab dega??

{Photos from Pintrest}

Dream to kiss her neck from behind always remained a Dream.....😴😌

I love to talk who love to talk to me, from now onwards no any forceful conversation or forceful connection. those who wants to talk will show some efforts to text first. just want few but genuine connection.

ना मैं अच्छा, और ज्यादा बुरा भी नहीं

तुम्हें लग रहा समझ लिया मुझे

तुमने मेरे सोच को अभी छुआ भी नहीं

खुद को समझ रही हो हूर

मेरे कुछ ग़लतियों को देख कर जा रही हो दूर

जानोगी जब मुझे एक दिन टूटेगा तुम्हारा भी गुरूर

फिर सोचोगी क्यों दूर कर दिया उसे

क्या थी उस लड़के की कसूर

विचार और व्यवहार से ज्यादा सबको हो रहे बाहरी सुन्दरता और पैसा से प्रेम

ये है आजकल का सिनेमा, सेलिब्रिटीज , और पश्चिमी देशों का देन।

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if you think i am desperate, No baby i just value people and love to talk otherwise once i let you go then i don't care you exist or not.....

कुछ रिश्ते ऐसे हैं जिनको गवां नहीं सकता

करता प्यार इतना की बयां नहीं कर सकता

जगह तो बहुत है मेरे दिल में ,

पर तेरे सिवा किसी को बसा नहीं सकता । 😁😊

Sorry guys, it's for my an imaginary partner i wanted to share with her but abhi aap logo ke saath kar rha hu, kyuki abhi akela hu 😂😆

DISCLAIMER: Read the description under the video before watching!!!!

The animation of this music video is soo beautiful. I love it 🥰❤️.

But the story which is telling..... was heartbreaking. It felt like a warning ⚠️ , like a reminder of what happens when you end up in a relationship with a toxic partner. You felt in love ignoring every red flag. You start to gaslight yourself. You start to see him as your only option. You start to convince yourself that you two are suitable for each other when you are definitely not.... And before you even realize it, you end up completely broken by him both physically and emotionally 💔😔...

That's why ladies, be careful when choosing a partner. Not everyone out there is suitable for romantic relationship.

SPOILERS FOR SAM AND MAX: THE DEVIL’S PLAYHOUSE

(Also a rough personal vent based on how much this game resonated with me. Trust me, it’s not for the faint of heart. Warning: contains instances of childhood trauma and the many other mental health conditions it came with)

This game did so much justice for Sam and Max themselves, considering how this game is the first time anyone has seen these two in this multi-layered light since the original was released by Telltale back in 2010. I could go on about how this game has very much given me even more appreciation for Sam, because it has! But I really do want to talk about what was confirmed in this game about Max.

First of all, I love that when we’re in the Museum of Mostly Natural History in the episode They Stole Max’s Brain, we get an exhibit on how “the world will end” which shows a display of a giant monster destroying a city and the scene mechanically rotating into a desolate wasteland where the city used to stand. Mostly because of how well it works as foreshadowing for what was to come, (that foreshadowing also happened in The Penal Zone where Sam and Max first discover the Toybox) which ended up being Max turning into that giant monster that was predicted to bring the end of the world by the end of The Alley of the Dolls.

In the grand finale The City That Dares Not Sleep, when we’re literally inside Max himself, we end up learning his own Super Ego hates him and wants him to die. The Superego isn’t a separate entity, he is very much a part of Max’s own mind. I’m pretty sure every other Sam and Max fan who’s played this game has pointed out Max being as depressed and self-loathing as he is, and hiding it behind his sense of humor and his iconic smile. (He even brings up earlier in The Tomb of Sammun-Mak that he likes to fall asleep to the song “Tears of a Clown” which if you’ve heard of it, it’s 100% because he relates to that song. That’s just more good foreshadowing)

Honestly, I’m just going to say this, this 100% is something I deeply relate to. I’m probably going to vent a lot, but it’s important to understand where I’m coming from. During my childhood, I kept finding myself in these special Ed programs that I hated being in, they never truly felt like they were safe, but I had no choice but to put up with them since as far as my parents knew from the people who misinformed them, kids are completely incapable of truly understanding what is best for them. There were several times where I knew something was wrong with the way my life was, but I couldn’t put my finger on it since I was so young and constantly surrounded by people gaslighting me because I was that young. My autism diagnosis was something I deeply resented because it put me into these programs where I was objectified and told how the way I am and behave is wrong and should behave how THEY instruct me to. A lot of pressure was often put on me to behave with this standard of “perfection”, often leading me to be punished for not perfectly following that standard. I had no choice but to bottle up those imperfections because of the teachers of Special Ed that would constantly watch me like a hawk and sometimes even follow me around when I’m just trying to get on with my school day and get to my latest class in time. It didn’t help that I also kept getting prescriptions for medication that did more harm than good for me. One of the pills caused me to rapidly gain around 20 pounds in the span of a few weeks as a 9 year old, (making Sam pretty damn relatable in his own right too.) and another prescription REALLY messed with my brain. (If you want an example to how I acted on that awful drug, just think about how Lemongrab from Adventure Time was like) All this along with a few other reasons I might bring up someday ended up getting me to first develop suicidal thoughts at age 10. And as soon as that happened, I was taken to a children’s psych ward in a hospital where for some fucking reason, some “responsible adults” thought it would be a good idea to put the kid that thinks they’re a freak of nature that never should have existed in the first place in to a children’s psych ward made up mostly of kids that were surrendered from their parents for then being drug addicts and committing crimes they’re now in prison for. My much pickier childhood self when it came to the foods I ate (which is something a lot of autistic people are known for diagnosis wise) and the people running the ward didn’t give a damn and I spent my time malnourished lying in bed waiting for myself to starve to death and finally end everything I was going through up to that point. It took my mother INSISTING constantly that she bring food that I like so I could finally be more well nourished. But I can assure you it was hell, a hell I was stuck in for 11 days.

A bunch of other messed up stuff happened too, but I think this information has the gist of why I’m like this. It really wasn’t easy for me to type out, let alone have the nerve to publish on a public site. Honestly, I’d say Sam and Max: The Devil’s Playhouse resonated with me in a similar way Guardians of the Galaxy Volume 3 did. (If any of you have also seen that movie, you’d know EXACTLY what I mean. What I brought up also made Rocket Raccoon’s story resonate with me as much as it did.)

I’d like to thank the people of Skunkape for remastering this game so more people like me can have access and experience this masterpiece of a game. It was just what I needed now, and I couldn’t be more grateful of it happening!

Remember kids, there are healthier way to be weird than to be a far right politician!