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dabi: why do you keep sending me that fuckass emoji
hawks:
His so.... *sigh*
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"we've been going all night, how are you still horny?" ft. takami keigo // hawks
mdni. 18+. dumbification, creampie
each time your eyes were able to peek open, you caught a glimpse of the gorgeous sight above you: keigo's face, flared with passion and lust as he fucked into you with great force, golden visionaries glowing with love as he looked down at your face, thoroughly fucked out, yet still craving more.
for hours, lewd sounds had filled the bedroom; a symphony of your loud moans tied with his deep, low groans, all paired together by the sloppy sound of his hips smacking against yours. your eyes were clamped shut from the neverending pleasure, but you found yourself wantingβno, needing more. keigo shared your desire, blissfully obliging each time you'd whine out a 'more, please'. his cum had mixed with yours, more of it dripping from inside your cunt to the bedsheets with each of the male's brutal thrusts.
"we've been going all night, how are you still horny?" keigo huskily groaned into your ear, smirk tugging at his lips as his hips pistoned back and forth, cock stretching your walls out each time, a delicious squelch sound coming from the friction. you wrapped your arms around his neck, pulling him into a sloppy, disheveled kiss. you babbled some unintelligible words into his lips, the only recognizable syllables being keigo's name.
"aww, pretty baby, y' mind's barely working, y'need me that bad?" he snickered, hoisting one of your legs over his shoulder to fuck into you deeper, feeding off of your incoherent pleas and whines. you tried to convey how close you were getting to your orgasm, but simply couldn't; the overstimulating pleasure was far too great. your back arched off of the bed as you moaned and screamed for him, legs quivering as his thick cock sent you past your limit for a countless time, wails of his name being the only thing you could produce.
your walls clenched around keigo's cock again, a feeling which he couldn't get over no matter how many times he'd already felt it that nightβand, much like the previous times, it spurred his own orgasm. with a low, smooth grunt of your name, the male took one last deep, impactful thrust, spilling his seed inside of you one last time.
pulling out, keigo admired the mess he'd made of you; hazy, barely able to form a sentence, with his cum spilling from your pussy and pooling onto the bedsheets. "i love you, babybird."
This allusion to Icarus isn't even trying to be subtle. This was the first time Hawks' wings were depicted in their full glory, and it came with the overbearing light of the spotlights shining down on the base of his wings.
It's a neon flashing light to include imagery like this for Hawks' introduction. The message is clear: this character is an Icarus who will fall after his wings melt from flying too high, straight into the sun.
There's an interesting juxtaposition between Hawks' words and how he appears in this arc. He speaks as if he wants to take it easy while being drawn like a man with ambitions that will eventually burn him to the ground.
Notice that Hawks takes off his mask before he starts saying something truthful/outside of his role. Everything he said until this point was part of his faΓ§ade.
And it's notable that the first genuine dialogue Hawks has is that he doesn't admire All Might. Not all hero characters in BNHA had All Might as their main inspiration, but until this point there wasn't a single hero character to say anything like "I never wanted to be like [All Might]". Endeavor was not the exception. He may not have liked All Might personally, but it was primarily due to envy. Endeavor wanted to be like All Might in that he wanted to be number one and the strongest.
It's interesting that the takeaways from Hawks' introductory chapter are that he's duplicitous, ambitious, and doesn't like All Might. His introduction unsettled the status quo of the story until this point because Act One revolved around All Might the Symbol of Peace and Number One Hero. But Hawks is established as a top hero character outside of All Might's orbit with ambiguous intentions.
before "hawks", before "dabi"
the family if mama todoroki had gotten a divorce
what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if wh-
an attachment formed during childhood could've saved them maybe
au where toya stays part 4 (?). hawks and touya meet at endeavor's agency whether they want to or not heh (some lore in the tags)
camie deserves to get that special autograph
Hi! I saw some people saying that Hawks is gonna have a mental break, but honestly I don't see that happening currently, do you think there is a chance for that?? (I tough only him realizing that villains can be saved through Ochaco but nothing more than that maybe him been involved on the Todoroki plot but it's seems that they are now far away from him)
Maybe you are focusing on the extreme negative connotations with the word "mental break" and not really reading it for what people mean when they say that, which is:
Hawks's walls that close him off from everyone and everything and his own true emotions need to finally come down. And that happening is not going to be a fun or smooth or easy process. He needs to "break", as in, those mental walls/barriers need to break. And with that, an emotional and mental "break" should follow behind it.
I can vouch for several friends of mine who desperately want to see him cry. That's really what people mean when they say mental break. Because Hawks won't cry, he won't express hardly any emotion right now because he's not facing what he's done and what he really feels. I wrote about the villains needing to CRY and I feel the same applies to Hawks. The cathartic emotional and mental release people are wanting is because they want him to face his actions, face how he really feels about them, and challenge his way of thinking. That is not an easy process (See: Tomura), so it shouldn't just be something he casually shrugs off like no big deal. If you're thinking people are wanting a legit psychotic break then no, that's not true. And if they are, well, weird, but that's not the crowd I'm talking about here.
I'm sure you didn't want a whole thoroughly thought-out response to this but this is the consequences of your actions (jk)
You brought up Ochacko as Hawks realizing villains can be saved, and yes I agree that's a thing that should happen. Hawks killed Twice, and then proceeded to say he wants to be like Twice. That is not a normal thought process. And in the act of killing Twice, he struggled internally due to his own conflicting feelings on the Jin Bubaigawara he grew a sort of attachment to before the PLF raid, and used language indicating that he genuinely felt pretty fondly of Twice---and then proceeds to stab him in the back (literally). I highly recommend checking out @transhawks meta on the interaction between Hawks and Twice before he killed him, as it really points out some of the emotions Hawks was cycling through in that moment. Also, re-read that scene anyway because you can clearly see Hawks struggling with the situation, only to snap at the end.
So again, even within the context of fictional bnha it's not normal for Hawks to stab a guy in the back and murder him, express pretty much zero remorse about it at all, and then proceed to say you want to be like him because you like him as a person.
Hawks and Twice were put into a mirror situation of Izuku/Tomura, Shouto/Touya, Ochacko/Toga. Twice was Hawks's villain. And Hawks actually kickstarted the whole narrative of attempting to save a villain you've formed a connection with by appealing to their needs in some way and using who you are as a person to that villain. The thing about their situation is that Hawks failed. For obvious story-telling reasons, like he can't accomplish what the kids' goal is before they do, before they even get a chance to entertain the idea of it. But for character-related reasons such as Hawks refusing to face himself and be vulnerable. Twice was just openly vulnerable 24/7, but Hawks didn't let his walls come down even one bit, which was the problem in their dynamic. The problem extends beyond that because Twice is gone now, and you can see that Hawks won't even be vulnerable within himself, to himself, for himself. He just won't do it. And with these hero/villain pairs the manga has set up for the end game, vulnerability from BOTH sides plays a huge part in the kids succeeding at their goal of saving. Hawks refuses to do that, so therefore he failed.
And rather than reflecting on his time since then, what we get when Toga!Twice shows up again:
is Hawks immediately resorting to killing him again, still not facing the mess of a situation it was when he did it for real back in the PLF war.
When Hawks talks about Twice in the way that he does--such as wanting to be like him and liking him as a person (yk like when he killed him), it's framed pretty ominously:
And this panel brings me to his involvement with the Todorokis.
Do I know how Hawks's involvement with Toga will lead into/tie into his involvement with the Todorokis? No, I don't and can't really see the pathway YET, but he's tied to both and it's uncharacteristic of Hori's writing style to leave things unfinished/unaddressed, so I'm confident he's going to make it happen.
Hawks and Endeavor, my god. Hawks, for lack of a better way of phrasing it, wishes Endeavor was his dad. It's coded this way, Hori doesn't go out of his way to beat the allegations either with his art:
Hawks's parasocial attachment to Endeavor (who quite literally never pays any extra mind to Hawks or spares a thought toward him during this whole final arc (or ever tbh)) is not a good thing. It's not cute, it's not sweet, it's not a normal admiration. Hawks's commentary on the Todorokis, his intrusion into their conversation during the hospital chapters, his curiosity about special details (like Shouto's eye), him insisting on just supporting Endeavor literally no matter what--there is nothing positive about that. Hawks even says it himself that he admires Shouto for facing his family's problems, when Hawks never got to (through no fault of his own, but this is a testament to how he feels about the Todorokis). In a sense Hawks just...wishes Endeavor was his dad. I mean that's the most blunt way I can put it. He views Endeavor (the doll) as a source of comfort, like a child would/should their parent. Little Hawks and little Touya being placed in front of Endeavor, whose face is split evenly on the page, is not subtle. It's clear a choice has to be made, and Hawks is not the choice Endeavor is going to make. Touya is.
Now, if Horikoshi wants to write a satisfying conclusion for Hawks similar to that of the LOV setup to have an emotional catharsis moment later on, then he'll make this impact Hawks believably. That should NOT be something Hawks just shrugs off like it wasn't a big deal. Because it 100% will be/should be treated AS A BIG DEAL. He's clung to his image of Endeavor since he was a child. Endeavor the hero, who beats bad guys. Not Enji, the father who rejects heroism in the name of saving his villain son--who burned Hawks's wings and went after his mom let's not forget. That is not something we've seen Hawks contemplate internally. The whole fight Hawks is worried about Endeavor, meanwhile inside Endeavor's head he's thinking about himself or his kids. The relationship is not the two way street Hawks would want it to be. And it's gonna be made clear, and that should hurt.
So, two major things here that really shouldn't be just "Β―\_(γ)_/Β―" moments for Hawks. Ochacko saving Toga (dressed as Twice) should be a pretty jarring awakening for Hawks that HE tried to save Twice, but he failed. But Ochacko is succeeding in saving Twice's friend. It should be a pretty upsetting event to look back on that situation and realize that killing Twice really wasn't the answer, or the only options, because Ochacko saving Toga (again, currentlydressed as Twice) is living proof. Hawks failed, and Twice, the guy he says he likes, is dead. Endeavor choosing family (Touya) over heroism (Keigo) should also be upsetting, because his childhood ideal Endeavor is gone.
Both of these things happening should be challenges to Hawks's thoughts and feelings about himself, and that should not be a smooth process that doesn't involve strong emotional reactions from the character. There's a LOT left to be done with Hawks and that's why people want to see it.
Am I confident that it'll happen to the level of that I am confident Tomura, Touya, and Toga will be saved? I wouldn't say I'm that high up on the confidence scale, just because Hawks has always been so weirdly handled by Horikoshi that I scratch my head at his choices with Hawks sometimes. But I AM confident they will be addressed. Hawks maintaining his cool guy demeanor would be really stupid and disappointing tbh, especially because the LOV losing their "cool" demeanor elevates their stories so well and I think Hawks deserves the same treatment.
ok I know itβs a month late for this buuuuut~
Valentines/White Day Art! Left: this year Right: Last year
The girls! My favorites here are Mirko from last year and Tsuyu form this year! (Momo and Mina form last year are cute to) The base I used for them I had to add two people in which where Hagakure and Tsuyu, thatβs why it looks. . .Off, itβs still cute tho, their outfits where based on the ones they had on in the School briefs vol. 6!
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . then we have for today which is white day! a holiday in Japan where the boys give girls things like marshmallows and cookies (and sometimes white chocolate to!) and other candyβs or gifts of equal value and price that the girls gave them, which it why itβs not that celebrated anymore (that and sexism. . .)
(same) Left: this year Right: last year
Iβm actually surprised with how well the boys came out! It was originally a base with 4 and I added in 2 people for Deku and Denki, but they look so cute! I love how cute Midoriya is for this year! And Hawks from last year, Denki form last years cute to, and this year honestly their ALL Cute! . as you can tell I repeat myself WAY to much! these where all made to go with each other and match in a way!
I do feel bad I blocked off Tokoyamiβs face and Half of Shotoβs I owe them. . . .
I drew this picture of hawks a year ago today for a story Iβm writing and I did a fallow up drawing today thatβs supposed to be a year later to (if that makes since)
originall right, new left
Sorry if the pics are blurry! I love both of the so much! I canβt decide which I like better!
the lil story behind the drawing is hawks took a picture of himself on his first day as an official hero and then the next her he took a similar picture on the same day!
Although itβs drawn in march, he got his license on Nov 20th so the drawing probably takes place on the 21st or 22nd
(Also the story foucuses on him when he first became a Hero 5-4 years prior to Mha)
I hate drawing wings what the freak. Iβve been experimenting with my art too much
What if I wrote a smau Hawks x reader AU where Hawks is a baseball player and the reader is a dancer.
What then.
itβs insane how I started off hating this man so much I wanted to skip his screentime four years ago to straight off fall in love with him the moment I reread the series. ISTG.
literally kicking my feet and fucking screaming oh my god
keigo takami the man that you are
THE CUT THAT ALWAYS BLEEDS
Keigo Takami is in love with you, and you don't love him back
Hanahaki disease, angst, fluff, workplace romance
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Keigo starts his morning the same way he has for the past two months, by coughing up a handful of bloody petals.
It splatters against the pure white of his toilet bowl, and he watches, knees digging into the floor and hands grasping the lid as they wash away, the water turning pink as the red petals disappear. Itβs disgusting, really, the way heβs sprawled on the toilet floor, and on any other day he wouldnβt even consider touching the lid of any toilet, even his. But he doesnβt care, because the pain in his chest is aching, and his lungs burn as tries to breathe in, and Keigo cannot stop thinking about you.
The first time heβd coughed up a petal, it was after a week of pain. He thought it might just be the flu, or some other illness heβd caught from flying around in the cold winter winds. But then one night it had reached its peak, and Keigo was in slight disbelief at the red rose remains in his hand after heβd coughed his lungs out. It was small and bloody. He didnβt know what to think of it, so he didnβt. Maybe he swallowed something when he was flying, who knows. It wasnβt anything to worry about, he decided.
And then it happened again. And again. And itβs been happening ever since, now two months later, only getting worse and worse as the days go by. It was only after a week that he looked up his symptoms, the flowers and the blood and the constant pain in his chest, and the internet said there was only one thing it could be.Β
Hanahaki disease. It originated in Japan, apparently, and was rare, but real. Keigo skipped past all the useless information to find what he really needed. He found itβs a disease where someone coughs up flowers due to unrequited feelings for somebody. And he knew, the minute he read those words, that his unrequited feelings were for you.
Keigo had never loved anyone in his life. Not his parents, for obvious reasons, and his training at the Hero commission had meant that he had no time for it anywhere else. Not that there was anybody in there to love, anyway. And now, as a Pro hero with his own agency, he didnβt want love. It complicated things, and he was in no position for a relationship anyway. He barely had time for himself, so how could he deal with a relationship? So Keigo filled the empty parts of himself with meaningless sex with whoever he found. At parties, at award evenings. It was just the physicality of it, skin on his own. He craved it and got it where he could. It pissed his publicist to no end, but they usually kept quiet, and scandals always did good for the agency.Β
And then he met you.
His assistant had quit. Something about better opportunities, work closer to home. He had flashed her his best smile, sent flowers to her home, and waited dutifully in his office for you to walk in the next day. And you did, perfectly pressed shirt and black skirt, smiling so sweetly at him and introducing yourself, and he knew it was over.Β
Itβs not his fault. What couldnβt he love about you? You were funny, you were kind. You brought him breakfast every morning and started leaving a pillow and a blanket in his office when you knew heβd come off a night shift. You actually spoke to him like he was a person, not Hawks, not the Number two hero. It didnβt take long for the feelings to start but he thought he was pushing them down well enough.
These flowers tell him heβs not.Β
He flirts with you, and the two of you joke around, but nothing ever comes of it because he knows you donβt like him back. And even if you did, Keigo would never do you the horrible favour of burdening you with loving somebody like him.
Keigo sighs, pushing himself gingerly to his feet. He clears his throat and it stings from the acidity of throwing up. He moves on autopilot, shrugging on his coat and typing the laces on his boots. His mind races with thoughts of you, of how long he has left. The final stages are apparently whole flowers and he ignores the voice in the back of his mind that says judging by what he just coughed up, heβs getting dangerously close to the end.
The weather outside is cold and bitter. Keigo hates winter, hates how he has to bundle to avoid the sharp, piercing wind whenever he flies. Itβs harder to patrol in the dark and youβre less likely to leave the agency for your lunch break, so it also means he canβt use it as an excuse to take you out. He steps out on his balcony, sliding the door behind him, and he shuts his eyes.
Sometimes he thinks in another life, heβd tell you. In another life maybe he was just an assistant like you, someone normal, someone you deserved. That after his shift heβd get to come home and youβd have cooked dinner or heβd bring home takeout. He craves normalcy, to have a home with someone, and he canβt help but dream itβs with you.
He slips his goggles on and pulls up the gaiter around his neck. He steps forward and with one strong flap of his wings heβs in the air.Β
The flight to the agency doesnβt take long. Nothing really does, to be honest. Heβs not patrolling today but he still keeps an eye on the ground, the sky still dark as the world wakes up around him. He lands deftly in his own office, and the wide windows being pushed open already lets him know youβre in the building too. He runs a hand through his hair, quickly checking his reflection to make sure he looks good. He does, obviously, but he canβt help but worry. Thereβs a familiar knock on his door, and you donβt wait for him to let you in before you enter.
Today, youβre wearing a long pair of trousers that hug your legs, the white blouse you have on buttoned up apart from the top two, a small sliver of skin exposed to show a small gold necklace he got for you at a Christmas party, holding two coffees.
His heart pounds and he coughs into his sleeve. Your eyebrows furrow and you step forward, empty hand reaching out.
βAre you okay, Hawks?β You ask, and he nods.
He clears his throat, swallowing away the feeling prickling it. He nods, flashing you a toothy grin. βYeah, now that youβre here.β
You roll your eyes but he doesnβt miss the small smile on your face as you set his drink down on the table. He takes a long drink of it and you wince.
βGod, I donβt know how you drink that. Itβs more sugar than coffee.β You scrunch your nose and he shrugs.
βI need the energy, babe, you know that. All that flying around burns calories quickly.β
One of his feathers shuts the window, another two hanging up his coat. Your eyes follow quickly. He might be trying to impress you a little, but itβs been a long enough time of you watching this show that heβs sure it doesnβt do much. The skin tight thermal might, though. He may or may not be flexing a little when he stretches, but he doesnβt see any harm in that.Β
You nod, pulling out your phone, eyes quickly averting away from him. βOkay, so. Luckily for you, today is just paperwork. No energy necessary.β You sigh, sitting down heavily. βI hate paperwork days.β
He knows exactly why. The long, tired hours of writing and reading. Anyone would hate it, but Keigo? Keigo loves paperwork days. A whole day with the two of you in a room? What couldnβt he love about that?
He sits down across from you. It feels a little weird, too formal, with you across his desk. He doesnβt use it much. His office is pretty empty. There's no decorations, no plants, nothing. It's empty because Keigo doesnβt care. He doesnβt like this office. The only thing he likes about it is that itβs the place he spends the most time with you. He wishes you were closer.
He coughs. There's a familiar feeling itching in his lungs and he begs to a God he doesnβt know that he wonβt throw up flowers in front of you.
βAw, come on. Paper days are fine. And Iβll order food for us later.β
You perk up at that. βReally? Letβs get yakitori.β
βAnd this is why I love you.β He coughs again and you peer at him.
βAre you okay? You keep coughing today.β
He nods. βDonβt worry about it, babe, Iβm good.β
You keep looking at him. βIf youβre sick, go home.β
βNo, Iβm fine. The number two hero doesnβt get sick.β
You donβt look convinced but you hold up the first set of papers. His fingers brush against yours as he grabs them. The two of you sit in silence for all of five minutes before Keigo groans. You look up, amused.
βIβm bored.β
You sigh. βMe too. But as your assistant I have to tell you to keep going.β
Keigo pouts. You tap the pen in your hand against the desk.
βNo way to get out of this?β He says. βNope.β
βNo work parties I can look forward to?β
You shake your head. Then you sit up suddenly. βWait. Oh my god.β
Keigo sits up too, immediately mirroring your panic. His wings curl out behind him. You cover your face with your hands.
βWhat? Youβre freaking me out, Y/N.β
βThere is a work party! Tonight. That Iβm supposed to be planning. And I completely forgot!β You groan.
Oh. Thatβs easier to deal with. βItβs fine, donββt worry. Weβll sort it.β You shake your head and it ruffles your hair, and he wishes he could reach forward and brush it behind your ear. βNo, I don't know what to do. Itβs for Kayleeβs birthday! Everyone loves Kaylee, I love Kaylee, thatβs why I offered to plan this for her.β You ramble.
Keigo catches most of your babble. He quickly moves off from behind his desk to stand in front of you, his hands coming to rest at your shoulders. βBreathe, girl.β
You do, chest moving up and down slowly. Like this, with you still seated and him standing, he towers over you. He thinks for a moment.
βLetβs just go now.β
βWhat?β
βWeβll just go get the stuff you need right now. Shouldn't be too much, right?β
Your eyes glance at the paperwork on the desk. βWhat about all that?β
He hums, and you look up at him again. This close, Keigo can see you so much clearer, so much brighter. Another cough rumbles in his chest and he ignores it. βWe can do it another day. Blame it on me.β
You bite at your bottom lip, considering his offer. You stand up and nod, determined.
βOkay. Okay, let me get my coat. Iβll meet you at the front desk.β
And then youβre out before he can say another word.
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Keigo thinks this is torture. Real, honest to God torture.
Youβd refused his offer to fly to the marketplace, so now the two of you were just walking down the street. Heβd left his feathers at work, and changed into the most civilian outfit in the agency. It always felt weird without them on his back, the heavy weight something heβd been used to since he was born. But for you, Keigo thinks he might set them all on fire.Β
What makes everything worse is that youβre walking with your arm linked in his. You had been since youβd walked out the agency, animatedly talking and pointing at the things around you. It was hard to focus on much when your fingers squeezed his bicep every time you saw something you liked.Β
βOkay, so. I need a cake, and decorations. And like, snack food.β
He nods. βYes, maβam. Can we squeeze lunch in there?β
βThereβs always time for lunch, Hawks.βΒ
The first stop the two of you end up at is a supermarket. You pass him a coin to grab a shopping cart and he immediately starts running around with it, and you tut.
βHawks, enough. People are looking.β
Your words should sound annoyed, but thereβs a soft fondness behind them that has his head reeling. You take the cart from his hands and he lets you walk ahead, because the feeling that heβs started to dread builds in his torso, and he grabs the tissue out of his pocket and he coughs.
Itβs loud and grating and it scratches the back of his throat. Heβs lucky that thereβs nobody around to see him gag into his hand, the petals tickling as he spits, blood splattering against it. He breathes heavily, once, twice, and tears prick at his eyes. He curses, eyes screwed shut. Not today, not like this. Not when he finally has a day alone with you. He throws the tissue in the trash outside the shop, and goes in to find you.
He finds that grocery shopping is fun. Heβs never actually been before. His groceries are kindly delivered by the Commission straight to his front door, so heβs never actually done this before. Itβs exciting. He likes the little line you get between your eyebrows whenever you get annoyed at him for putting random things in the basket.
βHawks, enough! We donβt need six loaves of bread!β
βWe do! We can make those little hors dβoeuvres with like, pesto on them.β
You mumble some choice words under your breath, putting them all back. βHawks, this isnβt some Hero commission party. Weβre getting a bag of Doritos and dip and calling it a day.β
Keigo pouts and you drag him over to the basket. βHere, you push this.β
You take him to the produce aisle and he boos as your throw in a few vegetables sticks. Keigo gags again, holding up the celery sticks. You snatch them out his hand and toss them back in the car.
βStop. We need something healthy so we can eat a carrot stick and feel good about the cake Iβm going to buy.β You tap your head knowingly and he grins.
βI donβt look healthy enough as is?β He stretches out his arm and the windblower youβd found for him in the agency billows around his arms.
You snort, patting him on the chest. βOh, yeah. You look great.βΒ
It leaves him winded, just for a second, and then heβs back.
The cake aisle is his favourite one. You steer him clearly away from the childrenβs cakes, because heβs sure you saw the light in his eyes when he noticed the Marvel cake.Β
βCan we get chocolate?β He asks, and you shrug.
βI donβt know. You know what Kaylee likes?β You step a bit closer to the shelves, peering at the different boxes.
Keigo hums, tapping the corner of his chin. He walks around the cart until heβs right next to you. βHow about that? Red velvet. And it looks cute.β He points to the one near you, arm reaching over and brushing against yours.
βHm. Yes. Thatβs- Yes. Red velvet.β You nod.
Keigo glances at you and he finds the two of you are closer than he realised. He thinks if he leans in just slightly youβll be kissing. He smiles, soft and sweet.Β
βYou look pretty this close.β
βSo I look ugly from afar?β You joke, but you sound nervous.
Keigo's eyes dart to your lips. Itβs so quick but he sees the way your cheeks flush. βYou never look ugly. Donβt I compliment you enough?β
You shove him away softly, reaching for the red velvet cake.
βEnough out of you. Go grab candles.β
And Keigo does, in the next aisle over, and hopes you canβt hear him coughing up another handful of petals.Β
βββ
The two of you finish up quickly, despite Keigoβs efforts to long out the day as much as he can. The coughing only gets worse, and heβs surprised you havenβt noticed the amount of times he disappears to hack up his lungs around the nearest corner.
But itβs fine, he tells himself. This is about you, about helping you. He can deal with this problem later.Β
You, who are sitting across from him in the tiniest table known to man at his favourite yakitori place. Part of him is a little annoyed about the whole βcivilian disguiseβ, because whenever the owner sees itβs him he always gets a few extra sticks. But he canβt complain. Your legs are touching his, seeing as youβd shoved the both of you in the farthest corner of the shop possible. Which also happens to be the smallest in the shop.
βOkay, so, when we get back Iβll set up everything and weβre done!β You speak around a mouthful of food, chicken almost falling onto the table.
He nods, mouth also full. βPerfect. And youβre sure you donβt need help setting up?β
You shake your head. βI should be good, thereβs not that much to do.β
You place the now empty stick on the table, dusting your hands. βThanks for this, Hawks. Really.βΒ
He just smiles. βDon't mention it. Anything for my favourite assistant.β
βArenβt I your only assistant?β
βSo? Youβd still be my favourite if I had more.βΒ
You snort, picking up another stick. βSure, sure.β
The grocery bags crinkle beneath the table. And like this, without his wings and without any eyes on him Keigo can be selfish and pretend like this is real.Β
You glance around the restaurant. βI like this place. Why havenβt we come here before?β
Keigo shrugs, polishing off another two sticks. βItβs usually busy around our lunch time. We should come more though.β
You nod. βDefinitely. Thereβs this ramen place too, we should go there. Itβs by that supermarket we went to.β
Itβs so casual, so calm, and his heart is racing.Β
βOh! I found this song. I think youβll like it.β
You dig in your purse and pull out the same ratty wired earphones he makes fun of you for everyday. He rolls his eyes and you glare at him.
βNo. Shut up.β
βJust let me buy you a nice pair of AirPods, babe. Seriously, these are dying.β He flicks the wire thatβs covered in tape and you tut, pushing his hands away.
βNever. I'm a wired earphone supporter till I die. Come here.β
You scoot your chair closer to the table, but they donβt really reach. βFuck. Okay, wait.β
You stand up, dragging your chair so itβs right up next to his. You sit down, and your hand comes up to brush his hair out of the way so you can press the earphone in his ear. And if you see his breath hitch you donβt say anything. Just hit play, your own earphone in.
And the pure bliss of having you this close, close enough that he can smell the sweet scent of your perfume, lasts about a minute before he starts coughing.
He reels it back as much as he can, wincing as he swallows the petals that try to crawl their way out his throat. He drinks water, washing away the taste of metal from his mouth and he barely even registers your hand on his shoulder.
βHawks? Are you alright?β Thereβs panic clear as day on your face, and he nods.
βY-Yes. Donβt worry, I think I just swallowed a piece of chicken wrong.β
Youβre not convinced as easily as before. βThat didnβt sound normal, Hawks. Should we take you to the doctor?β
βNo, itβs fine, babe. I promise.βΒ
He holds up his pinkie. You just stare at him for a moment, eyes searching for a lie. But you seem to believe him, because your hand comes up and your finger curls around his.
ββ-
The party is going well, he thinks.
Kaylee looks happy. You did well with the decorations, as best as you could do with an office room and an hour. Thereβs pink balloons and streamers that Keigo wants to scream that he bought with you. But thatβs stupid and desperate, so he doesnβt.Β
Youβd all sang and cheered as she blew out her candles. She looked nice but Keigo couldnβt keep his eyes off you, grinning so hard it was like your face was about to split in half. People were milling about now. Keigo likes to think he knows all his employees but heβd be lying if he said he recognised every face that had come to greet him.
There is one face he could recognise anywhere.
βBirdbrain! What are you doing here?β
Rumiβs voice is loud and full of energy, and he canβt help but mirror the grin on her face the second she claps him on the back.
βItβs almost like this is my agency.β He raises his eyebrows. βWhat are you doing here?β
βKaylee and I know each other from ages ago. She used to intern when I was working with Best Jeanist.β
Keigo nods. Out of the corner of his eye, he sees a guy approaching you. One of the office workers he canβt name. His wings are back on his body and he wishes he could send one over to listen to what youβre talking about.
βBut- Are you even listening to me?β Rumi says.
βYes. I am.β
βNo. Youβre not.βΒ
Rumi follows his eyeline, to where youβre handing out slices of cake. She nods, understandingly. βI see. Have you asked her out?β
βWhat? No. Why would I- Sheβs my assistant.β Keigo splutters.
Rumi laughs, clapping him on the shoulder once more. βOh, Hawks. Has positions of power ever stopped you before?β
Keigo frowns. βNo, itβs not like that. Iβm not trying to just hook up with her.β
βOh.β Rumi looks at you again. βYou actually like her?β
βYes. No. Itβs- Itβs complicated.β
Rumi hums thoughtfully. The two of them were quite blatantly staring at you now, and Keigo is sure youβd be quite weirded out if you caught them. But he doesnβt need to worry about that, because your attention is stolen away by some guy. Keigo doesnβt even know his name because heβs some irrelevant worker that doesnβt even matter.
But he seems to matter to you. Because you are smiling and laughing, and you nudge his shoulder when he says something Keigo itches to hear.
βWell. Maybe try telling her. She wonβt wait around forever.β Rumi nods towards you and he shakes his head.
βThatβsβ¦ I donβt- Just leave it.β Keigoβs voice sounds bitter in a way heβs not used to, and Rumi peers at him.
βBirdbrain? You doing okay there?β
Heβs not. How could Keigo be doing okay, when Rumi is annoyingly right? You wonβt wait forever. Keigo doesnβt even have forever. He has a few weeks left if his research is correct. And for some dumb reason Keigo didnβt seem to think about the fact that he might live to see you with someone else.
You move slightly closer to him, and Keigoβs fist clenches.Β
He doesnβt even know the guy, but can he be surprised? Youβre perfect, youβre you. It makes sense that heβs not the only one in love with you. Keigo sees the hand this guy places on your elbow, the way he smiles at you whenever you laugh. He knows that look because itβs how he looks at you everyday.Β
And then it starts. Slow and slight. It stirs in his lungs, just a tickle, but he knows, he knows what comes next.
Rumi notices the way his face pales, and she shakes his arm. βHawks? Youβre freaking me out, whatβs wrong?β
And he tries to answer, but all that comes out is a choking noise he canβt even recognise as a sound his own body made. And the feeling builds up all too quickly, and Keigo thinks he might be dying. Heβs rushing out the room to try and make it to the bathroom, but he doesnβt make it further than out the door, because the pain in his chest is splitting, like somebody is trying to push their way out of his skin. He drops to the knees and he clutches at his stomach, and he coughs and coughs and thereβs blood, and thereβs flowers now, fully grown flowers-
And then everything goes dark.
ββββββ
Keigo opens his eyes to the bright white ceiling of a hospital room. Itβs not something he hasnβt seen before, and the slow blink back to life and the few seconds of peace before the pain kicks in are always the worst. He blinks harshly before slowly, slowly sitting up, arms almost buckling from his weight.Β
He hates the weakness that comes with injury, the embarrassment. If he was still training at the commission they wouldβve sent him back on the field before heβd even gotten up. But, he doubts heβd have gotten a disease quite like this over there.
Itβs only after heβs pushed himself into a sitting position that he sees you.Β
Arms crossed as your head leans back against the wall behind you, asleep. He has no idea how long itβs been, but judging by the fact youβre still wearing the clothes you were wearing in the office, he assumes itβs the same day. He glances out the window and its pitch black.
And you look beautiful. Even with the mascara smudged beneath your eyes, the worry on your face even visible in your sleep. Keigo looks away, but not before you wake up and catch him staring. You blink like you might be dreaming, before you bring your chair closer to him.
βHawks. Youβre- Youβre awake.β You whisper the words like if you say them too loudly they might not be true.
He smiles as best as he can. βHey, pretty. The party still going on without me?β He tries for a joke but your eyes prick with tears.Β
βDonβt. Donβt joke right now. Nothing about this is funny.β You sound serious in a way heβs never heard before, and some sick, twisted part of himself is giddy that itβs all for him.
βYou promised you were fine.β
Keigo wants to turn away because the hurt on your face is his fault.
βIβm sorry. I just-β He sighs. βDid you see?β
βYes.β
βDid anyone else see?β
βNo. Rumi stopped them from coming out into the hall.β
He nods. You shake your head, hand coming up to rub at your eyes.Β
βHow long has it been?β He asks.
You check your watch. βItβs one in the morning so. About six hours.β
Keigo falters. βWait- Youβve been here for six hours?β
You frown. βWell obviously. I- They said Iβm your emergency contact. And someone had to be here to tell you what the doctor said.β
He knows already. From the sharp pain in his chest he knows.
βIβm assuming you know itβs Hanahaki?β
He nods. You nod.
βYou-β You curse. It takes a few moments for you to get the words out.
βHe said you donβt have long. The petals, he said theyβre starting to look like flowers. Fully grown ones. And that means youβre in the final stages.β Your voice cracks and Keigo thinks he might throw up again.
βOkay.β
You pause. βOkay? Is that all you have to say? Okay?β
Keigo frowns. βY/N, I-β
βDo you not get it, Hawks? Youβre going to die. He says youβre going to die if you donβt either tell the person or- get the surgery done.β
Keigo shakes his head immediately. βIβm not doing the surgery.β
Your lip quivers and you pull yourself even closer. Your hand grabs his and itβs cold where his is warm, and you squeeze.Β
βYou have to, Hawks. The world canβt lose you. I canβt lose you.β You whisper.
And your words sound so raw, so vulnerable, and it tears at his inside more than the roses growing inside them.
βJust try. Try, okay? Tell them how you feel and see. It- It might be reciprocated. It definitely will be. I mean, who wouldnβt be in love with you?β You laugh wetly, eyes glistening with unshed tears.
But thereβs something else behind them.
Jealousy.
And thereβs a small flicker of hope that grows beneath his bones. And he looks at you then, at the tears that gather on the bottom of those fluttering eyelashes. And he reaches up, brushes the curve of your cheek.
And your breath hitches. He feels the heat on your face from how close he is, and he thinks he might cry.
βItβs not fair.β His voice sounds so weak, so awfully weak and he wants to scream.Β
βWhat is? Whatβs not fair?β You ask.
βI canβt tell her. I donβt deserve her.β
You look so confused. Like heβs said the dumbest thing in the world. βWhat?β
βIβm not- I work almost everyday, and when I am off Iβm too tired to do anything. My place is more of a prison cell than an apartment. I- Iβve never even been in a relationship before. Never even thought about it. I canβt- Iβm not allowed, Y/N.β
And now his voice cracks and your hand squeezes tighter. And his voice sounds unfamiliar. This desperation, the frantic panic that fights against his words is so unlike him. Keigo has never been vulnerable with anybody in his life, but that look in your eyes makes him feel like he can tell you everything. All the dirty horrible secrets he keeps locked inside himself.
βItβs not fair. I donβt know if I can even be there for someone. Itβs why I never said anything, I didnβt want to mess up a relationship thatβs so important for me for one I canβt even commit to. Itβs not fair on you, Y/N. You deserve better.β
He feels like thereβs a weight thatβs left his shoulder when he finishes speaking, rambled words he can barely remember. Heβs out of breath when heβs done. Waiting anxiously for you to say something. Maybe this real version of Keigo is too much for you. He has half a mind to tell you it was just a joke, he didnβt mean it if it means youβll stop looking so shocked. Keigo just needs you to say something.
βI deserve better?β
He doesnβt expect that. βWhat?β He says, confused.
You swallow roughly and he watches the sharp lines of your throat as you do so. βYou said βyou deserve betterβ. You as in, me. As inβ¦ Iβm the one you have feelings for?β
Shit.
βI- Did I say that? I think itβs the medicine, itβs making me all-β
βAre you in love with me, Hawks?β
The room isnβt silent. The machines heβs hooked up to all make a low humming noise, and he can hear people and nurses walking and talking outside. But when you say those words it feels like the world has stopped.Β
He could lie. But Keigo wonβt get the surgery, so he figures he might as well let you know how he feels before he dies.
βYes.β
You freeze for a moment. Then your hands come up to cover your face and he immediately misses the contact. And then your shoulders start shaking and he thinks you're crying.
Keigo sighs. βItβs not that awful of a thing. No reason to cry.β
βIβm not crying. Iβm laughing.β
When you look back up at him there are in fact tears running down your face, but you look happy. And hope claws its way out of him.
βThis funny to you?β
βNo. Your stupidity is, though.βΒ
Keigo is quiet for a moment, confused. βDo you mind elaborating on that?β
βHawks, do you think itβs normal that I do all your paperwork with you? Or that we get lunch together almost everyday? Do you think any other assistant in all of Japan would stay as late as their boss, especially when heβs a top ten Pro hero who rarely finishes before ten in the evening?β
βI-β
βDo you think itβs normal that I wear this necklace you bought me everyday?β And you reach into your shirt and pull it out, the gold catching against the light.
βHawks, I spend every waking second Iβm in that agency with you if I can help it. Iβve had job offers a million times better than what I do for you, and Iβve rejected every single one because I wanted to be with you.β
Keigo doesnβt say anything. You grab his hand again, but it feels a little more threatening this time.
βYou donβt get to decide if I deserve you or not, I do. Itβs- I canβt believe you. I donβt care about all that. Weβll figure it out together.β
And Keigo just closes his eyes, because this canβt be real. He must be dreaming, because Keigo doesnβt get things like this. Love. Nothing like that look on your face thatβs all for him.
βYou sure you're not just saying this because Iβm dying?β
And you laugh, and let your tears fall freely, and Keigo can finally breathe clearly for the first time in months.
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this is for lysa if ur anyone else stop reading...?
JKKKKK guys i love hawks so much i can't explain... he was my lover for so long i miss him
also i loved writing this i literally did it in ONE NIGHT?? plz give me more ideas pookas
LOVE U ALLL HAVE A GOOD NIGHT
Was watching a makeup tutorial on YouTube and now i canβt stop thinking about Hawks drawing his winged eyeliner like a legend he is every morning before patrol. Iconic.
in which your job is to manage keigo takami's modeling career, not his flirtation habitβbut unfortunately, he's extremely good at both.
β¨ as the ceo of a tech company for pro heroes, youβre used to dealing with malfunctionsβjust not one with wings and a flirting problem
kind of an actor au where the characters of my hero academia are also voice actors and takami keigo is literally EVERYWHERE. He genuinely is in so much media that it's impossible to list all his roles... and hes never the main character or anything! Just a supporting character, maybe even ones that don't have much screen time! And whenever he shows up, it blindsides people every. single. time.
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he clocks you immediately during a hero meeting. it's notΒ justΒ your hero costume (though, let's be real, he appreciates a good design). he's sizing you up strategically, noting your power, your demeanor, and how you interact with the other heroes. it's professional... at first.
your first real conversation happens during a joint mission. maybe you're both tracking a villain known for their swift escapes, and you end up covering the rooftops together.
he'll make a comment about your performance in the mission. he will call you by 'miss/sir', as it is only professional. but he will compliment you, no matter what goes wrong.
he's observant. he notices small details about you β the way you handle your quirk, the way you interact with civilians, even the brand of coffee you're sipping. this info goes straight into his mental file labeled "things i find interesting about [reader's hero name]."
he's testing the waters, dropping subtle hints. a casual "maybe we should grab coffee sometime and compare notes?" is pure hawks β playing it cool while secretly wanting to know everything about you.
he starts "coincidentally" showing up where you are. training facilities, hero galas, even that one yakitori place you love. he'll play it off as being in the area, but we all know better.
teasing. SO MUCH TEASING. he'll poke fun at your hero name, your costume quirks, anything he can get away with. but it's always lighthearted and playful, never mean-spirited. it's his way of gauging your reactions and pushing your buttons (in a good way, of course).
feather messages become your new norm. they arrive at your agency, your apartment, maybe even during a stakeout. short, silly notes or helpful Intel, always signed with a mischievous feather flourish.
he seeks you out specifically during large gatherings. he is a social butterfly, but he will try to talk to you. he will always try to have you close to him than other people.
he starts confiding in you about the commission, about his doubts and worries. he doesn't do this with just anyone. you're earning his trust, and with keigo, that's a BIG deal.
dates are never stuffy or predictable. think rooftop picnics with a city view, late-night patrols fueled by convenience store snacks, and impromptu karaoke sessions. he keeps it fun and spontaneous.
He's aΒ toucher. a hand on your back, a playful nudge, a casual arm around your shoulders. nothing too intense, but always a reminder that he's there and he's into you.
PDA is subtle but sweet. no grand gestures, but you might find him absentmindedly playing with your hair while you're talking, or leaning in close to whisper something in your ear.
he sends you pictures of chickens. sometimes he βfindsβ them on the side of the street. or see them in the pet store. if he does see chickens, he will send it to you.
he opens up more about his past, about his fears and his dreams. he is still guarded, but he lets you see glimpses of the real keigo takami, the one behind the wings and the bravado.
he's fiercely protective. Not in a controlling way, but he's always looking out for you, making sure you're safe and comfortable. he'll take on any villain who dares to threaten you.
he makes corny jokes, especially chicken/bird-related ones.
he will make you feel the safest you've ever felt in your life. after everything he has went through, he will try to protect you with his life.
falling asleep on his wings is the best thing ever. just don't be surprised when you wake up covered in feathers.
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