I Can’t Explain One Big Thing That I Hate
I can’t explain one big thing that I hate
I really hate eating. I googled so many diseases but I cant explain the urge to lazy around and for hours to avoid the “responsibility” consciously.
I can work hard! I can! And sure, I need to get used to it but then…. Oh… when at that small second I feel hunger and my mind contemplated for me to stop doing EVERYTHING, just to eat, my brain sadly says BIG NONO.
I start doing nothing and when confronted i avoid it like plaque, i will put on plate, right… go to kitchen, good idea. Then I will start walking! I really have problem with consuming food, there were multiple times back then especially starting 2019…insh at covid era somewhere then, but not so long ago either, i would have extreme fasting period of months…. That happened on multiple occasions, one of them was severe. I lost lots of calories but surprisingly my body didnt feel that different. You can be surprised how long you can survive without food given you dont waste all calories and carbohydrates and glycogen most important through intense workouts.
With more dormat turgor life, you can survive even without water for quite a bit.
I definitelt did back then…. Anyway, the past is over, sometimes I fear “wow w00t wasted all his lifespan hahaahah what” but seriously on average a normal person is far more efficient than I am at efficiency in life. Sometimes its hard to put “Ive done something this grand!”
But yes i need to go fucking eat. Proving the problem……….
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Ant-egoitistical
Unlike people, I don't have ego. I don't feel evil when I do things. Only people who have good lives feel fear of losing these lives, i had everything of pride stolen from me long ago. That's why I've always been objective and never egoitstical. Because I long have lost. I was always loser when it came to winning anything, the bottom of the barrel. That's why we losers tend to objectify things, atlhough I never lie to myself so I can never really cope. We like science so much because we can't win in usual environment. I don't know if you believe this is blessing in disguise, but I already lost to you.
Forgot to train today.
I get ueah I am guilty. But I hope i can loss this fat man..
I am
More demoralized because of technical issue I couldnt fix as of today.
Imagine your mom fucking other men daily
Ouch it is not nice feeling
Genetics
I wish I was not related
I have wished this long ago. My body demands not being related. I hate animals. 50% population :(
Forget it. I’ll just do normal squats
Oddly i felt my abs cracking its kind of pleasant feeling
Almost unnoticeable too. Getting used to leg day is hard you see i have very bad stretchiness so its not easy for me to hold it angled
Tomorrow i promise i will force myself to love leg day.
I have Monokuma plushie, since you’ve mentioned Despair.
@dorenarox
Earlier I had a thought. Which is always a bad thing!
There was something in my past that made me feel very much betrayed and confused, and years later I got to hear how it didn't even matter to someone else who was also involved in this.
Which led me to wonder if I would be different if humans hadn't ruined me.
I felt my abs. Obliques, but i felt them… for the first time. Nice!
