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I need to change. I want a healthy, well balanced happy life. No stress no drama just pure happiness help me please
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today is worst day, i am off killing myself.
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our existence and future is predetermined by variables around us.
some things that make you better, and some things that don't.
when I consider that I imagine I should just off myself today.
I got shock figuring out I am 22, not 21 years old. I lost track of time so badly I forgot that. I thought I was 21 and convinced myself. But I actually am 22 now. Wow, last 5 years of my life were hell. In fact, I'd say everything after 12 was already hell. It was empty void. That's why I really hate videogames, why did I spend so much time playing garbage like Dark Souls? Jesus. Uh... Fuck, I am 22 years old, holy shit I am fucked. It's time to think about my future priorities. a month in mental asylum then few years of absolute suffering and misery, anything after 2015 is blurry to me, I feel like I stopped existing as entity. I wasted a lot of time on social media, a lot of time chasing nothingness, things that possess no power in the world.
And now it's actually 2025?! My brain feels like nothing has been happening and I was genuinely rotting away. I am glad I managed to release some of these touhou videos, I am glad I managed to bring churro back. But everything in my spirit feels miserable, it's pretty obvious I am not cutout for humanity's methodology. I haven't made any friends nor any partner, I do not have any form of support at all. Not even one of family. And with my personality, with my way of being, I doubt I'll ever be able to get any. My ego is in shambles and anger as of right now. It's funny right? It's a small detail but if I said 21 it would have made me FEEL as if I accomplished a little of something. By taking a date one year further now it makes me feel like I am REALLY LATE. After all, I took a while to condition myself to the premise of "atmosphere", this is how "things are supposed to be or play out". I feel insignificant today and like the world is jusjt gonna step on me to death and there's nothing I can do. I am people pleaser, because i felt socially forced to act like one. Like that was a means of survival that I half-hazardly accepted while not feeling it in my heart. Now even complaining makes me feel like age is crawling as penalty for speaking words here. Indeed, nobody really cares. It's all fake, people only care about things that cost zero risk. Associating yourself with something weak makes you weak, isn't that right?
So, what will be my priorities for the rest of my life?
I am definitely alone and I am also not strong to defeat the world on my own, I am tired of ironyposting. I am fucking tired of watching shit youtube content. I am tired of social media hijacking my mind (when really i would've preferred living in a tribe than this fucking -technocratic place) well.. 1. I will try to work on churro as much as I can so this site works and I will use my finance to support it. Since I won't ever have a child, I can share it with the site. It can be costly for future servers and for advertising on whenever I can, but it is my genuine goal to both spend my time and money on the site. That said, I cannot do it while also working, because a few hours aren't enough to code any substantial changes or fix bugs. I will work on trying to take a gambit of perfecting the site while NEET at the moment. My second goal is touhouposting, I thought that I will have periods where I upload videos on youtube and continue doing it. Playing videogames might not be good way to spend free time, but nobody really liked me and I don't communicate so I feel this is better efficient way than all these times I tried making friends. I will probably upload touhou videos every 4 days if my time allows it, but I will eventually run out of time to edit.
So, the touhou thing isn't eternal, give it like 5 years maybe max, I hope to end it at 3. They will be published even if I die but they ought to be entertaining videos.
With that said, gym and training play huge role of my daily life. So that also takes a lot of time.
And procrastinating, I gotta talk about the worst. I am bad at dealing with abstract things, they waste my time more than anything. I am already a loser incel the way I am but when I deal with something that doesn't have a clear goal it will be bothering me. I need to manage my time so I spend the LEAST time on things that requrie entertainment over work. This stuff is something that is hard to fight when you got addicted to brainrot.
As for drawing, drawing is genuine effort workoholic example, so I priotize drawing in free time over meaningless conversations with people who only care about themselves anyway + doom feedscrolling (awful i hate it i am not gonna do it anymroe notgonnadoit My life looks pretty shady according to human standard, but I never went to bars or anything like that, in fact maybe its peopel who are shady and they have the majority. So, what do I do after I get churro perfect and upload all vids I wanted? hm....
yep, I'm probably gonna die. I wouldn't know anything anymore, it'd be nice to have son who would manage churro, maybe I can adopt somebody at very late age as ultra-cuck or something, I am getting tired of typing....
I have cut on my left arm that leaves this fold next to bicep.
When i train my left arm feels so heavy. This rash or whatever… came provably from mosquito. Well im fucked
I guess one more year neeting
I am demoralized if i cant even remain strong then whats the fucking point
Forgot to train today.
I get ueah I am guilty. But I hope i can loss this fat man..
My left shoulder felt like it was eaten by shark. I felt wow I was fucking dying
Ate chicken, drank protein did fucking every t h i n g but it kept fucking me. I started asking why is that that i only dont feel muscle sore when i eat carb food is it over?
Then drank and chugged water insanely nevermind like shit either way kek
I AM SO FUCKING FAT!!!
I am gonna gymmax bros
I meet cut maxing and running
I have been having one mentality
Walk 40 km with protein shake.
That didnt work
Then I tried just training daily, but I fee no difference….
Carbs go in and calories dont go out, but without carbs I also feel frigid.
I have planned on making my own blog for like a lot, and my idea was to get domain, to manually write it.... IT still is. But knowing this place, I do feel it offes pretty much anything you would want, also it's been 3 days! :F
I am afraid of going on blogfesting, my biggest challenge is to keep it to myself sometimes, this place definitely feels really cool... And I don't want to ruin my blog by being too weird.
First, I really love Jack from Baki, right now he is really well treated... It's common knowledge if people know me but I am also jaw training and wear his shirt. To me, Jack is really cool. I love seeing his progress and journey, but I doubt the writer will let him kill his father..... Unfortunately.
He is ready to sacrifice himself to become stronger but he is very stoic and always appeared stoicish... I really hope the authors don't ruin him, I do have a bit of a bad feeling about it. He was also raised Christian when he was a kid, originally he did not intend on using drugs to become stronger... That has been something that was offered to him by scientist who needed human experiment, so he is partially affected by the world itself to be evil.
Of course, thee steroids he had were worse than usual, but steroids in general are bad for long term health. Steroids have of course had adverse effect on him...
Oh, nvm this is the wrong picture.
He also defeated Pickles! :F I didn't expect that, there was not much build up here and it was one-sided defeat. So I wonder about that.
While some men go for style and character, others go for brute stoicism. Both Astolfo and Jack are definitely one of the best characters, I am rooting for them. :D
I hope you enjoyed my post, I am new here and I am not very good at socializing with homosapiens.
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BASED. BASED AF.
All jokes aside this is basically why I work out too and I’ve found it to be really gratifying and confidence boosting. I’ve worked out to lose weight before and I’ve mostly found it to be anxiety inducing and felt insanely guilty and terrible about myself anytime I didn’t make my weekly goal or even gained a kilo, but after I switched to working out to gain muscle and power I’ve been feeling just so much better about myself. It feels great to look in the mirror and go “woah, nice, my tits are huge!” rather than “ah shit, I wish my tits were smaller”. It also feels way nicer, building muscle and gaining power feels physically great, as opposed to starving yourself to lose flubber, which feels horrible imo.
Love y’all, and good luck building your muscles! ❤️💪
for your information I am NOT working out every day to lose weight or improve my health im working out every day bc I am a raging nerd and wanna be built like a jojo character 😌
ok yo but like azula with lady muscles instantly got me thinking of ty lee with lady muscles and now i just really want art of them sparring with flirty undertones because girlfriends
Ty lee is FEISTY today
work out: 40 minute run
food rules: yes
stretching: yes
studying: 3 hours
meditate: nope
⋆₊˚4/10/2024 – DAY 4 journal
The day after my binge fast was suprisingly good, I thought I'll feel sick or something but nah, it was a regular day. I started it by eating a toast with two eggs, i only ate one because i burnt them both and the second one was just.. uhh.. Yeah, then i *sadly* went to school but I'm trying to make school better to myself so i have to be positive about it. Yay! I went to school. The day wasn't bad but my bsf disrespected me and i was mad at her, tho I'm not anymore. I got a good grade form my polish class and a compliment from my russian class teacher. When i went back home i made myself lunch = a salad my mom made (with greek yogurt so extra healthy) and fried chopped sausages. Then I IMMIDIATELY without any rest went to my room and hopped on my treadmil. I ran for 40 minutes, so my work out was done! Then i again, immidiately, started studying. Okay, there was a little break but it was cleaning the kitchen, so it wasn't really a break. I studied for 3 hours straight because I have a math exam today and i didn't know anything, but i do now - yay! Then it was already dark outside and my hair was super greasy so i just took a shower and washed my hair, its sooo soft now. It was already 8PM when i finished so i went back to my room, started working on my subliminal (I didn't finish it, if anyone is intrested then bbabybrooke is the name of my channel!!). I watched some YT videos and just went to sleep 💤
WORK OUT: done
FOOD RULES: done
STRETCHING: done
SHOWER: done
STUDYING AND MEDITATING: nope
--- <1500 calories, <15k steps :c
⋆₊˚1/10/2024 – DAY 1 journal
I planned to go to sleep early, wake up at 5:30 am, work out early etc. but sadly I couldn't because i had to wait for my sister to come back from work (2 hours after i was supposed to go to sleep). So, I woke up at 7am and washed my hair and showered. It took a whole hour! After washing my hair, i worked out - today was pilates, i only did half tho. Yeah, I should work out before showering BUT i take a long time in the bathroom and others wanted to get ready too, so i had to be smart and shower earlier. I did only the first 30 minutes of pilates and then stretched, I did gua sha too! Few hours later we were in the church for 2 hours and went to visit the graves of our family members. Then we went to visit my grandpa (dad's side) and it was fun ngl, we were talking and i finally didnt spend much time on my phone - instead we talked, a lot! (I'm an extreme introvert) Then we went to my grandma (mom's side), she had cake but i didn't eat any of it because im on a no sugar diet. It didn't make me sad tho, I didn't crave sugar that much today. We talked a lot too, and i didnt even take my phone! I felt sooo pretty and i actually accepted that im fr attractive (I have body dysmorphia disorder). I got two strawberry chocolate bars from my grandma (dad's side) and some cake from my grandpa (mom's side). After we came back home, i did the other part of my pilates. Then i relaxed and played DTI, did my skincare and read some books. It's sleep time now💤
diet + workout = 60 day glow up plan ::
~ 1500 cal daily - absolutely no sugar, salt, fast food and junk food - minimum 15k steps a day - at least 1.5L water a day RULES :: - eat only in the kitchen - no snacking while making food - fruits or veggies are the only snacks - do not body check (or weight check) - dont eat after 7 PM
FOOD :: breakfast = something filling with protein lunch = something that gives me energy for a workout (can be carbs, but some veggies and protein are good too, since my mom makes lunch) dinner = something light, can be a salad
WORKOUT :: monday :: 1 hour run tuesday :: 30 minute strenght training (full body) wednesday :: 1 hour pilates abs focused thursday :: 40 minute run + 30 minute strenght training (legs) friday :: 1 hour pilates full body saturday :: 30 minute HIIT + 30 minute strenght training sunday :: 20 minutes yoga + active rest day DAILY :: study at least 3 topics do lymphatic drainage massage stretch after and before sleep skincare + take care of your hair read books dont spend too much time on internet meditate track ur progress do SATS and avoid the mirror
I admire b!itches with an0r3r!@ athl3t1c4 cuz wdym you have the strength and motivation to manage both your restr!cti0n results and your gym results ☀️
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