I Don't Know Why But One Of The Worst Things That I Experience Daily Is Food Apathy, More Precisely I'd

Making decisions has always scared me because i want somethinf that is the best. Sometimes, there’s bo such thing as best but I was not educated well as child. If you had to decide what shirt to wear, my mind would go blank. If I have to decide what to eat it’s blank again. Maybe because I personally never felt good about making choices of my own, perhaps I suck at choosing arbitrary subjective traits, that makes me insanecel.

I am starving, carbs carbs carbs carbs carbs carbs carbs carbs…. I hope as long as I daily train muscles I can starve well. Yesterday I felt my muscles soaring, I shouldn’t have binged another tranime AcKA manga, that was bad move. I am like a robot programmed to consoooooooooom

Consooooom

If my inner voice stayed longer with me, I am sure I would have lost all kinds of bad habits in life, why is it so hard to make decisions that normies dont worry about? I feel sometimes rationalization isnt that bad, why do I wear skeleton on surfing board shirt? Hm……

Decisions.

BECAUSE ITS FUCKING COOL GET IT? SKELETONS ARE SPOOKY AND SURFING BOARD IS ALPHA SPORT.

I know I am broken tape recorder but I am like the guy from Kiznavier.

TRVTHNUKE. from nightingale chud.

continuation 2

The problem also is that...

I am thinking maybe I should do azur lane and for practice purposes do sennen but for the plot, what will you write in fantasy at all?...

its so boring.

Here's a giant monster.

they killed him.... wow.

crazy!

Thing about erotica is that the only good i can like make that would be interesting is the characters in the plot where they change or transform their expressions, their opinions, their form physical and their morality, their preferences, the place where events work on the characters, the small flavors mean nothing compared to drastic significant spice that required for characters to undergo. Especially, in stories with one male character getting harem, writing is limited because some aspects will never be changed. Instead, I was thinking of humor witty type of writing, but even I understand sex scenes in general are really boring but can be drawn prettily. That said if expressions or emotions are the same and static. Then what is left there?

I've had trauma since a long time since childhood, when I was younger I used to be creative and explorative, but something eventually has changed, I stopped thinking of rash decisions and for me this hell became objective reality. Everything seemed to be nihilistic, there was no hope or meaning to persevere, it felt for long like a trap and it still feels that way. I became a person who was desperate for a hope, for something to prove me wrong. But I was always proven not, in fact I became naive and cruel at the same time, because for me it was life and death option. I needed some reassurance this world is good and not birthed from bestial malice. At the end, I was never wrong about a damn thing.

However, even though being objective gives you kinder better understood perspective on life, it is not good. You find a perfect answer, after that you become stale. It seems in this world there is no happy ending, when you reach "it" you will end with despair again. You may try any path, and you will always end with the same despair. I am not sure if it actually implies to human perception everywhere, but somewhere deep I was irritated that everyone "got it" except for me, like everyone knew how to get away with evil except for me who was real dumb chump. Even at school, everybody knew how to cheat during final exam papers and did so. Except for me and one other jewish classmate. Everybody knew how to properly bully others. But I haven't been perse "brave" as much as logical, as long as I can read it it's not scary. So I played smart. And unfortunately, it has messed me up. Objectively, sole way to win life is to die for my conclusion.

Human perception is birthed of flaws since leaving the Eden, there is no real way any longer to win. Perception is doomed to fall.

Yet, I never once acknowledged that I did have happy moments, but it has never felt to me because the life kept going and it made me feel like I am outpaced all the time. Maybe, that sense of security from objective point of view is something I must let go off somehow. I honestly have no clue how scary the world is without logic, but logic has never managed to cure it. I believe you and I got scammed into believing it did and had false hopes for technology.

But hey, knowing this it is very possible that human livestocks will genuinely happen in far future. Oh well, we can't stop it from happening. Visit churro.

From now On I am Satoko Houjou Fan.

i am 21 ironically though.

and that's exactly what i'd want... except i don't have energy to watch animeslop too...

i'd rather just sleep

FRIENDS (1994-2004) 4.09 The One Where They're Going to Party!

I was inspired for the board /mog/ css on churro

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Forget it. I’ll just do normal squats

Oddly i felt my abs cracking its kind of pleasant feeling

Almost unnoticeable too. Getting used to leg day is hard you see i have very bad stretchiness so its not easy for me to hold it angled

If i die from sulphite lr asbestos poisoning, women are guilty.

Wiring that huge essay didnt make me less horny sadly.

Why NOT

siiigh some things are beyond our control