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if you have OCD that moralistic post it not about you. keep scrolling. i love you
why can anxiety cause psychical symptoms. why is it allowed to do that. i don't like that. no
I’ve often heard and seen mental illness be compared to having a lil demon in your brain but i disagree because demons are cool and sexy and my illnesses are quite frankly stupid losers. I think pyramid scheme promoter is a lot more fitting all things considered.
Having OCD is so weird and silly. Like, I know that there isn't a monster under my bed who’s gonna take my feet if I stand too close, obviously, I’m a logical adult.
But like,
There is, trust me on this one.
😢
Today is a battlefield, and I am the only soldier. Anxiety, self-doubt, intrusive memories- they all showed up, dragging their sharp edges through my mind.
The magical thinking whispered lies about escape, about fixing everything if I could just be someone else. I’ve been fighting them all day, and now I’m too drained to even think about self-care. Survival may be the only thing I can manage today
Please send help….😢
just because i think something doesn't mean it will happen just because i think something doesn't mean it will happen just because i think something doesn't mean it will happen
Terrifying
P2 👇
Greetings bugs and worms!
This comic is a little different than what I usually do but I worked real hard on it—Maybe I'll make more infographic stuff in the future this ended up being fun. Hope you learned something new :)
If you are still curious and want to learn more about OCD, you can visit the International OCD Foundation's website. I also recommend this amazing TED ED video "Starving The Monster", which was my first introduction to the disorder and this video by John Green about his own experience with OCD.
The IOCDF's website can also help you find support groups, therapy, and has lots of online guides and resources as well if you or a loved one is struggling with the disorder. It is very comprehensive!
Reblog to teach your followers about OCD
(But also not reblogging doesn't make you evil, silly goose)
every morning i wake up and make the worst possible time management decisions anyone has ever made
Hi everyone,
For the last day of ADHD Awareness Month, I thought I’d share the difference and similarities between ADHD and OCD. I hope many of you find this helpful. The link to the source will be below.
ADHD
OCD
ADHD Awareness Month
This will be kind of meditation.
I would like to say to myself especially about my brain. I am the smartest.
No, I am very smart. Indeed. The way my brain works horribly diabolically different. In some peaceful environment, I most definitely look perfect. But I am really really fragile and I would like if you view me respectfully. My brain has OCD but big major way it works is that it doesn’t have survivor as direct priority. When it tries to use thought process it makes millions decisions to “improve” final outcome, in other words I am not satisfied until I get major damage repair or problem solution, that means I will keep walking through a rope on top of a flagship in the wind to search for solutions. Very often I end up looking differently, expanding my horizon and gaining relevant knowledge to solve the problem. But I get in such way that the brain encourages risky paths more. More time consumption, more work, less power. Yara yara…
When other people have flaws or weaknesses, it’s easier for me to see them, hell it’s super easy. Each one of them, there’s million issues I can pick up on however I am more of an eye. Making logical decisions is definitely my forte also abstract reality is …. Unbearable, my ocd hates making abstract decisions that put me in disadvantage. That cynical pattern behavior has been true all the times. Sometimes, between two somewhat good decisions or two identical ones my brain doesn’t comprehend not making tough choice anymore…
I am too used to keep improving a decision until perfectly satisfied.
I understand flaw in that logic. How do I move from here? How do I live more like normies? To me, it is mental brainhell.
Being stupid seems to be bad. Being too smart makes you stupider than an idiot. Being smart in general doesnt seem to be useful survival skill. Real friends are only ones who can make my life happier.
I don't know why but one of the worst things that I experience daily is food apathy, more precisely I'd call it food hatred or food phobia. When I just do things on its own without much work, I am okay. But oh man, when I need to eat my brain gets really messed up. If you tell me I need to eat next week or 3 hours, to me that is being delivered a letter with execution date. It hurts me mentally when I got to eat, my brain slows down and I look like infected in Shikki. I have no clue why it hurts so much, maybe my brain cant handle the idea of slowing down to get extra fuel, but for me it is indeed awful.
Making decisions has always scared me because i want somethinf that is the best. Sometimes, there’s bo such thing as best but I was not educated well as child. If you had to decide what shirt to wear, my mind would go blank. If I have to decide what to eat it’s blank again. Maybe because I personally never felt good about making choices of my own, perhaps I suck at choosing arbitrary subjective traits, that makes me insanecel.
I am starving, carbs carbs carbs carbs carbs carbs carbs carbs…. I hope as long as I daily train muscles I can starve well. Yesterday I felt my muscles soaring, I shouldn’t have binged another tranime AcKA manga, that was bad move. I am like a robot programmed to consoooooooooom
Consooooom
If my inner voice stayed longer with me, I am sure I would have lost all kinds of bad habits in life, why is it so hard to make decisions that normies dont worry about? I feel sometimes rationalization isnt that bad, why do I wear skeleton on surfing board shirt? Hm……
Decisions.
BECAUSE ITS FUCKING COOL GET IT? SKELETONS ARE SPOOKY AND SURFING BOARD IS ALPHA SPORT.
I know I am broken tape recorder but I am like the guy from Kiznavier.
Greetings bugs and worms!
This comic is a little different than what I usually do but I worked real hard on it—Maybe I'll make more infographic stuff in the future this ended up being fun. Hope you learned something new :)
If you are still curious and want to learn more about OCD, you can visit the International OCD Foundation's website. I also recommend this amazing TED ED video "Starving The Monster", which was my first introduction to the disorder and this video by John Green about his own experience with OCD.
The IOCDF's website can also help you find support groups, therapy, and has lots of online guides and resources as well if you or a loved one is struggling with the disorder. It is very comprehensive!
Reblog to teach your followers about OCD
(But also not reblogging doesn't make you evil, silly goose)
I had a really weird experience with my teacher the other day.
Now for context, he's not my teacher. I had him for calculus last year after I switched from AB to on-level and got a near 100 in the class. I signed up for a teacher assistant position with him, thinking I'd be helping teach calculus. Nope. I ended up being a TA for Algebra 1 instead.
He's a very... interesting person, to say the least, and I've heard really mixed things about him over the year. I don't know where he stands on any issue I care about very much. I haven't had the courage to ask him about AI. I don't think he particularly cares for politics that much—not that I particularly care what he thinks—and has given very mixed responses on things. He seems to like Elon Musk, as he said that we're "Very fortunate to be in a time with him in it" or something of the sort because of what he did with electric cars.
But one thing I am absolutely certain of is that he doesn't like psychology and said at one point in front of the class of freshmen that I want to pursue a career in "stupid science." Now, mind you, there are at least two other kids in that class who want to go into psychology for a career. Which is awesome. I love that people have a passion for studying the mind.
He said that therapists (in a different instance) are hurting people more than helping people, and if I want to be a therapist, then I should just open a workout therapy place and call it a day. Because, according to him, workout is just as affective against Depression as antidepressants it's for mild depression, mild depression you ignorant fuck not major depressive disorder-- -_-
Anyway, I noticed that the kids in my class are making some rather inappropriate jokes about schizophrenia and being gay (which isn't a mental disorder, but I heard some distasteful comments that I couldn't let go unnoticed) before the break, and I had a long time to think on it, so when I came back, I asked Mr. Algebra teacher if I could talk to the class about how what they were saying wasn't okay.
He said that I have two minutes at the end of class, which isn't nearly enough time for me to talk about everything, but whatever. What struck me as odd and probably a Red Flag was how he kept trying to refute it and say that I shouldn't talk about it too seriously because they're just being immature. I made the argument that, yes, it's immature but it's also perpetuating stigmas that we don't want going around that can seriously hurt people and that what they were saying wasn't okay regardless. He said that people back in middle school said worse things like the r-word (which was also said here, but I didn't mention it), and I said sure but this is still bad as well. He said that I WAS RIGHT TO DO THIS AND SHOULD DO THIS 99 percent of the time, and internally I was just like why are you arguing with me and trying to backtrack this accomplishes nothing. He told me that I shouldn't expect for the issue to be resolved completely. I said I didn't expect it to.
I go up there and deliver my very awesome speech that he interrupted to make me get to my point faster, I guess. After I finished, he pulled me to the side and asked me what went well and what didn't. Which just felt... weird? I said that I think it went really well overall and that I didn't think anything was wrong. He said that he wished I didn't group the conversation about the gay stuff with the conversation about the schizophrenia and ocd stuff. To me, it felt like a very clear connection but oh well. He reiterated that I shouldn't expect to see much change. I said okay.
It's been almost a month.
GUESS WHO HASN'T HEARD A SINGLE COMMENT ABOUT SCHIZOPHRENIA, GAY INSULTS, OR ANYTHING REGARDING CALLING ANOTHER CLASSMATE OCD?
ME.
Take that, Mr. Algebra teacher.
It's the little wins that help me make it through the day, but honestly, this one is just completely boosting my self-esteem and confidence about being in the psychology field in the future.
Imagine a magical modern world where everyones ability is to manifest their personality/mental state/subconscious into a physical thing, and scientists find that theres a pattern within manifestations that allows doctors to diagnose people with a simple examination of their manifestation.
Trigger warning
And everything im about to list off would be traits if their abilities, not the actual abilities themselves
They stack, but are as powerful as the impact they have on the user
Narcs' manifestation would probably have something to do with themselves, or having themselves as the center
DID would probs be the ability to manifest multiple small/weak/incomplete symbolic (or not) things representing their alters or a single materialization of something cracked/split (necromancer except they bring to life their alters)
Id imagine depression would involve an ability with the perk to draw people in, like a siren
Anxiety would involve something to do with an unnerving type sensation, sounds, vibrations, disruptions, the sense of slowed or sped up time
Bipolar, a changing, fast, or sudden type ability
Ptsd/cptsd would probably have a flashing, sudden, or jarring type ability
Schizophrenia would be hallucinogenic, (that one spiderman scene from homecoming with that bastard man showing spidey things that arent real), aoe tyoe ability
Ocd maybe would have something to do with controllingness, intrusive/invasive actions (the itrusive thoughts in ocd becomes the premise of what happens to who ever their using their ability against? Idk ocd that well)
Phobias - depending on the phobia, the way you'd deal with what your afraid of being your ability. Arachnophobia - your ability being pest amd spider resiliant, agoraphobia - your ability having something to do with being able to hide somewhere safe that youve made (small portable inner world? Invisibility??)
ED; makes the person feel the opposite of their disorder (if the user has binge eating issues, then their power would make others feel empty/hungry/hollow; anorexia or restrictive would be like overwhelming the sense with a feeling of fullness, stuffiness, claustrophobia; etc)
Disassociative having something to do with an incredible europhoric/dream feeling or with an incredibly grounding, kind of like "oh yea i just remembered my entire life situation and cant escape" type feeling
ADHD either has something to do with the inability to have others activate their powers, control them well, or consistantly.
Addiction/substance abuse would be kind of like the helplessness, constant incessant need for something, anxiety, etc
The strange phantom tickles when you touch the wall with your right hand, but don't touch it in the same place and with the same pressure but with your left hand
randomly remembering its MY au and I can project onto it as much as I want to
and remembering I can draw as shitty as I want bc it's my OCD and not others entertainment (tw: bugs as intrusive thoughts)
So I've been looking into ocd recently and I gotta ask, how the heck did VIOLENT INTUSIVE THOUGHTS become 'yeah I'm such a neat freak uwu'
"There's no thought crimes and no thought heroisms" is honestly such a good piece of life advice.
You could be having the most fucked up problematic thoughts 24/7 but if you treat people with kindness, the good you do is the only thing that matters. But if you have only the purest thoughts and all the correct beliefs, it doesn't matter one bit if you spend most of your time being an asshole to people.
guy with undiagnosed OCD dating a guy with diagnosed OCD "hey does anyone have resources for information on OCD that i can print out and carry on me 24/7 and reread a lot because i am worried i will do something wrong and accidentally hurt my boyfriend and ruin his life forever if i don't know everything about OCD"
Autism: Bruce Wayne, Damian Wayne/Al Ghul, Cassandra Cain.
OCD: Bruce Wayne, Tim Drake.
ADHD: Stephanie Brown, Dick Grayson.
Neurotypical: Alfred Pennyworth.
None of the above: Jason Todd, Duke Thomas.
tell me if theres misinformation in here please, i used several sources but i could still be wrong
Because commenting on the site doesn’t feel right.
Because what I want to say feels too much like making things all about me.
http://archiveofourown.org/works/6919726 Yep, back on a bit of a Red Dwarf kick.
The more I think on it, the more I have mixed feelings about this one. Although, maybe I’m slightly emotionally burned-out right now and am having trouble connecting. Or it’s just because the OCD portrayed doesn’t fully fit with my experiences. But that’s the problem with OCD, it’s different for everyone. Heck, as a teenager, for a while I was seeing a psychiatric nurse that specialzed in kids with OCD, and some of what I told her about my problems at the time kinda threw her for a loop.
Honestly, I’m wondering why this fic doesn’t reasonate with me more- the number of times in my teenage years, being locked into ritual behaviours that were part of my pre-bedtime routine. The times I’d mess up a step and have to start it over before I could proceed to the next one, or worse, have to go back to an earlier step and start from there, in tears because I had to start over, and all I wanted to do was go to bed and sleep.
Maybe it's the "voices" part. It's never been voices for me, heck, it's not even really words as the intrusive thoughts, it's never been that structured. For me, it was feelings. It was all coming from my own brain, just a part I couldn't control. And as it turns out, couldn't defy. ...Not without repercussions.
For years I was trapped in the glass maze, running the same paths over and over. "Normal" was outside the maze, I could see what it was like, but I couldn't experience it. Pounding against the glass only hurt myself.
My psychiatrist got me out of the maze when he gave me something else. The Dragon The Dragon has rules, if I obey the dragon, I stay safe under it's belly. But if I challenge it, I get stomped.
Different psychologists, all sorts of therapies. All to appease my mother. But that, it was all challenging the dragon. And I got stomped. And afterwards, for daring to challenge the dragon? It's rules got more strict.
Still, I kept following my mother's battle cry. Every different therapy a futile attack, every new therapist or psychologist a new lance. And all the while, me getting stomped, because even though I'd learned about it's punishment, I was still trying to appease my mother first.
So now, I'm effectively housebound. For a while I was bound to my bed, but even my parents had learned not to fight the dragon, and instead of a lance, gave me something better- my own cozy resting place under the dragon's belly. -A granny flat in the backyard.
I'm still living at home, but I have my own place. I pay rent, but it's covered by my pension, and I gain so much more than I could lose. The dragon's punishment is heavy- I can't touch anyone with bare skin, but I can afford the gloves that let me pat our dogs.
And best of all? My psychiatrist is not a lance, not a challenge to the dragon. More a Sage, from whom I purchase tributes for the dragon. ....I'm getting too into the metaphor thing, aren't I? - I'm medication only. The dragon's fine with medication. It's not an attack, it makes the dragon happy enough to rescind a few rules.
Translation being, behavioural therapy only made things worse, but meds and finding ways to work within the boundaries set by my OCD is not only fine, but has seen some small improvements for me.
So yeah, what was going to be a short post in place of a comment didn't work out, I put out a standard wall-of-text attack instead. -But I was right, it was all about me. Which is why I just left kudos instead.
Have I said too much? Probably. Luckily, no-one will ever read this. ;)
your honor,
i am not doing too hot
Okay, this has irritated me for a while now.
So, don't get me wrong, I absolutely love my hometown. I just have my limits and standards.
In my town, we have a Chinese and Japanese food baffet that has a variety of foods that's called "Kobe's Sushi Baffet." It's one of mine and my siblings' favorite places to go for dinner.
There's only one problem that I have with it that I can think of.
THAT MOTHER F***ING BANNER DRIVES ME BEYOND INSANE.
The "S" in the middle of the banner has been upside down for as long as I can remember and I ABSOLUTELY HATE IT. I can't even properly word how IRRITATED it makes me. It's just completely beyond the capabilities of any known languages in the entire universe. I- I just-
*incoherent frustrated yelling*
(Okay, I got that out of my system. Please carry on with your day/afternoon/night.)