zeven132

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why was she in the backrooms

let her out

Jovial Merryment had the time to fuck Yellow on the track and still won the race. No one can do it like her

when you go to the gender clinic you can ask about being buried alive left to scream and claw at the lid of your coffin until you emerge into your real body & your real name but idk if it's covered by insurance

Trying to prove a point to my transphobic parents

Reblog if trans men are REAL, VALID AND HANDSOME MEN, NO MATTER HOW THEY CHOOSE TO PASS

Reblog if trans women are REAL, VALID, AND BEAUTIFUL WOMEN, NO MATTER HOW THEY CHOOSE TO PASS

And finally, because it's a part of my argument for this point, and also because they are,

Reblog if nonbinary and genderqueer people in general, are REAL, VALID, AND GORGEOUS PEOPLE, NO MATTER HOW THEY PASS

After I stopped playing competitive Celeste, why does even thinking about the game feel awful?

Every time I hear about the game I feel a sense of something I missed out on or lost. I don't know what feeling to compare it to. It feels like I have to go back to it to catch up with everyone else.

I was just playing so I could feel like I was better than everyone at something, but since I would cheat when the difficulty was too high and still submit to hardlist clears, mentally I would use that as proof that I wasn't actually good at the game. Every time I would look at someone better than me I would feel like they are at a skill that is unreachable to me.

I physically could not play any better. To beat darkmoon ruins I had to play the game in every second of my free time. it took 2 months to beat it and usually it took others only about a few days to a week. I had to put a fan on max on top of my controller so it wasn't slippery with sweat from my hands. I couldn't take a break for even an hour because then I would lose the muscle memory I gained during play sessions.

I never really felt like part of the community despite watching every major event and every streamer, every discord, every leaderboard, every mod; I still felt disconnected because I wasn't playing the game without cheating, and I had to cheat because there was no way to get any better than I already was.

every time an event like a new collab being released or an event stream happened I would feel like I was in a sprint race to beat each level and it felt exhausting and so demoralizing to see everybody else beating me.

what do you even do in the celeste community other than get better at something related to the game? hardlist, speedrunning, mapping, modding, and tasing are all you can do, and I tried most of them and failed to become notable at any of them.

I didn't play the game because it was fun, I played it for the status; I wanted to be known. The only people I knew, the only people that are notable in the community, are the people that are on the top. If you cant reach the top then why would you play? how are you content?

Its because they enjoy the game isn't it. The glory of winning compliments the fun they have struggling. I can't even imagine it.

Music Note damage basic Guide/Explanation

music note spells are one of the easiest ways to do hundreds of thousands of damage per second without needing expensive spells

By themselves, music notes do no damage and have a lifetime of 2 frames BUT have innate player-safe piercing.

piercing shot (the modifier) makes the projectile apply damage to hit enemies every frame at the cost of making the projectile also damage the player AND costs 140 mana/shot.

music notes have this but with NO COSTS.

This means that if you simply add homing, damage and lifetime:

then already you have a homing projectile that does 44 damage per frame (plus the 3 from the sparkbolt I guess).

If you cant find increase lifetime then there are a few alternatives that also add lifetime as a side effect:

null shot (beta branch) - adds 280 frames of lifetime (don't know if its very usable because of its effects on damage)

true orbit (beta branch) - adds 80 frames of lifetime (difficult to use effectively because of its behavior)

phasing arc - adds 80 frames of lifetime

spiral arc - adds 50 frames of lifetime

ping pong path/orbiting arc - adds 25 frames of lifetime

for scale - increase lifetime adds 75 frames of lifetime.

So how do you make it do more damage?

ADD MORE STUFF!!

This build fires 4 homing and piercing music notes that each do 176 damage per frame

176 damage per frame is 10,560 DPS

10k DPS PER NOTE

here's the wand I'm using in those clips for anyone wondering

you can see that its basically an extreme version of the last build

im hyperfixating on the scp foundation again and im trying to read every scp on the main list

i have also found a browser extension that lets me track the ones ive read in a list instead of relying on the visited link colours and its sitting at 346 read scps now (i have definitely read more though, i just have to find them again)

in total there is ~7877 scps as of now so that means i have now read at least 4.3% of them - yippee

UPDATE - 1 day after above, im at 5.6747 percent now with 447 read articles

yeah

Fake dirt rule

coukd you imagine going to the gym and theres someone fucking galloping on the treadmill

I wanna format my infodumps into video essays but I know my ADHD would make me lose interest after 1 hour