Beans Cvt - Blog Posts

Intro post

Hi everyone! My name is Archie and this my intro post!

What will my blog contain?

Recovery tips for @namia, $h, ptsd/c-ptsd, depression and anxiety

Joyful moments, pretty things, achievements of myself and my peers

Poetry, photography and other art I or my loved ones make (mostly about mental health)

My struggles in recovery and how I pushed past them

Love and positivity

DNI : I don't have any dnis really, dont be an asshole or a pedo, over 18 can interact with my posts but please dont dm me anything weird

(tl;dr under the cut)

Every time I open social media im greeted with something horrible. I want to make this account to spread light to the people in the dark like I was for so long. Not everyone is as lucky as me, I have incredible support networks that i will be forever grateful for. I'm going to post recovery tips, joyful moments, my struggles with recovery and how I am overcoming them. I aim to pour my heart and soul into this project as a gift to myself and other people who are still struggling like i once did. I have learned and grown so so much over the past few years and I'm still working on bettering myself but the internet can be a scary place and i want to make it just that tiny bit better.

ACTUALLY being stuck and having NO solution but suicide is so unbearably cruel

Oh to go back to the first day i self hsrmed

My heart hurts

I JUST REALIZED IVE BEEN SAED WHEN I WAS A CHILD

THE MEMORY JUST LIKE APPEARED OUT OF THIN AIR OMFG WHERE WAS THIS?!

I swear when i move out i am COVERING my body in cuts from head to toe

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Tw-fake blood

Old photo but still a good one, I did it with the thin blades in razors but the 100 Benadryl I took definitely help me get that deep it was to the bone but I didn’t get a photo before it got a lot of blood in it because I was really high and lost my memory shortly after and I don’t remember anything from four days after this

THIS Is shspo

Tw: fake blood

I’m gonna be so fr with yall this scared me when I did it not because of the depth it was only beans (I’ll post good pic of them another time)but because of the blood I was up till 6 cleaning blood I probably bled for 2-3 hours straight

I’ve been cvtting all afternoon..It’s so euphoric, but I always feel like I need to go deeper after a while bc it just doesn’t effect me in the same way. I’m always thinking about how much easier it will be to cvt when I’m thin.

telling him i relapsed y’all IM SO SCARED

so i’m actually ending it. he’s gonna be upset with me cause i relapsed. fuuuuckkkk.

dm if u want pics

my man said it was wrong of my friend to give me advice and tips for cvtting and said i need to be better BUT I DONT WANT TOOO

he knew what he was doing when he chose the mentally ill one

what do you use for $h? (like razor blades, glass, ect)

i use the blades from razors, i think they work the best. i don’t use a specific brand or anything just what’s there yk

i swear i cannot be the only one who scrolls and looks at sh when i’m bored or when i’m eating

WAIT CAN I SEE THE CARVING I CANT DM BC I FORGOT TO CONFIRM MY EMAIL BUT IF U SEND IT I CAN STILL SEE GAHHH

GURLLL I DKNT WANNA GET T WORDED, i might put a filter on it if you want OR try to confirm your email

can y’all please please PLEASE ask me anonymous questionssss

i’m in school and i’m so boreddd

my man said he’s proud of me for not cvtting and said even if i do it’s okay because i’m trying but i reallyyyy don’t know what to do, i haven’t in a few days since i carved his name but i really want to, the urges are so strong but he’s gonna ask me why and a bunch of other shit (he’s studying psychology so he’s always on my ass” WHAT DO I DOOOO

stop y’all, i literally opened tumblr while on the school wifi and forgot they have certain things blocked and when i opened tumblr it showed the “this is usually your dashboard” SHIT AND I GOT SO SCAREDDDD

Haii :3 i just wanted to say that you're really cool! ^^

hiii!! omg thank you so so much youre so sweetttt <3 <3

i’m just scared i’m gonna get t worded again

I DID IT!! DM IF YOU WANNA SEE

i love my man i would carve his name into me for him.

i love my man i would carve his name into me for him.

prettty girl

thank youuuuu smmm <3

What’s ur fave music artist? 😋

mmmmm i listen to too many songs to have a favorite artist

i love deep cvvts but i get scared to even go to deep styro, do you guys have any tips? i’ve gone to beans before but only twice like 3 years ago

i love all my girly pop moots except the only exception is @styro--boy

I wanna relapse and get into cutting again (I’m so stressed I can’t take this anymore) but at the same time it’s so difficult to hide and I don’t really know how to take care of my cuts :(

I used to just pour water on my cuts, wipe away the water and blood, then tape a folded piece of tissue to it 😭

i know i’m gonna sound like a hypocrite but if you have alrwady stopped, i don’t think it’s the best option to start doing it again unless it’s like your absolute last straw

what is your favorite song, and also what is your favorite hobby to keep your mind busy? :D

ooo my favorite song would have to be “Someone Somewhere Somehow” by Super Whatevr

my favorite hobbies would have to be ice skating, talking to my man, and calling my friends

how was your day today??

my day was actually very shitty, i went to court, cried, did the ice bucket challenge, argued with my father, cried more, cried, called my man (😍), aaannnddd here we are. the highlight was definitely calling my man, thank you for askinggg

okay so my man wants me to stop cvvtting BUT IT TVRNS HIM 0N SO WHY WOULD I STOPPPP UGHHHH IM HAVING A DILEMMA