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She's literally th1nspo

I don't want anything but to look like her.

Lowkey would wanna get better. But I am literally nothing without my addictions and obsessions, so we’ll stay here.

Fun dip as OMAD is underrated. (45-50cals)

I hate purging but still feeling some food in me. 😔

(sorry for the pfp it’s temporary but I still figuring it out so you’ll have to bare with me and my choppedness, luv ya’ll.)

Hey just a little PSA.

Moots. I am obsessed with you guys and your blogs. Seeing your posts will never not make my day, good or bad posts. I love y’all so much, feel free to choke me out whenever boo. ❤️❤️

Sorry I don’t rlly reach out. I wish nothing but fairy dust and magic in your lives.

actual icons of everything magical. 💕💕 @angelsdocry @x-psychotictendencies-x @wishhedbeenateenidle @mortifyingdarling @eepiiestgrrl @okkuspokkus

YAYAYAYAY

My brother is planning on getting me xans!! ‼️‼️‼️🌸🌸🦋

I HATE BEING FAT AND UGLY

So just crushed up two Advils. Honestly didn’t do a lot but if you’re just looking to take the edge off it’s fine. Plus if you try to placebo it enough I’m sure it could work. I’m sleepy now.

Hey reminder, racists are not welcome here or anywhere. We’re all disordered and sick, but this is outrageous. Seek help and leave the internet and don’t post things like this.

I feel like such a wannarexic, but Mia has been my lifeline lately.

my throat hurts.

seeing your veins and bones poke out more>>>>

IT’S MY ABUELOS BIRTHDAY HE’S TURNING 69 I LOVE HIM SMMM! HE IS THE SWEETEST PEA EVER. He sang to me, and we took lots of photos. We both watch Charmed together, his English isn’t amazing so he calls it ‘witches’ though I think he watches just cause he has a crush on Phoebe lmao. He loves my plushies and treats them like his grandkids. He gives me flowers on Mother’s Day bc I’m ‘their mother’. He’s an identical twin, and they’re both so handsome! Happy birthday to him and my Tio. I hope he gets to see a skinny version of me next year. ❤️❤️

The Gag reflex is back, it kinda sucks though bc I have to take off my nails every time b4 I purge. Then reglue them on. (I wear press on every single day btw.)

I HATE HATE when my parents confront me abt things, like I understand it but I just want them to shut up and leave me alone tbh.

Like today my mom was all like ‘Stop taking to me like your the parent and I’m the child’ well maybe if you regulated your emotions and stopped acting like a five year old I’d treat you like my mom. Maybe if I didn’t have to comfort you everyday because you feel unhappy with your life I’d treat you like my mom. Maybe if you didn’t expect me to always be all sweet with you, and make you feel better about being with my dad then I’d treat you like my mom. Maybe if you stopped complaining about every single little thing that’s wrong, I’d treat you like a parent.

Stfu.

Also she got mad that I’ve been using pmo, in regular speech since it’s disrespectful, ITS A FUCKING JOKE. She was all ‘What if your dad told his father he was pissing him off?’ Yeah I guess it wouldn’t go over well bc my dad’s father is practically abusive.

Anyway, I think I’m just mad bc I broke my fast.

Friendly reminder, it doesn’t matter what it is, if you split food or a meal, always pick the smaller portion. You eat less and you look nice. Don’t be greedy.

Ugh I wish I didn’t have to eat w/ my family.

So this is my one meal for OMAD including fries, how many cals does this seem like? Like an estimate. The place doesn’t have cals listed. (Which I think should be mandatory for all restaurants but whatever.)

Ignore the photo but there’s about 6 mini sandwiches all this size, each with the ingredients I listed above.

My brother is such a dick (positive) we were watching breaking bad a few weeks back, there’s a scene where a character purposely throws up, and very subtly, especially bc we were with our parents and they don’t know, he just turns to me, and points his finger just a little bit, like oh fr.

I love my brochaco‼️‼️

I need advice, my gag reflex isn’t working right, I ate like 1000 cals at dinner, and tried to purge but nothing would come down, only like 10 mins later. I have the shove my fingers all the way down to even get a feeling. Please, how do I like..Reset it or something?

Remember ya’ll to be a pretty girl you have to eat like a pretty girl.

Locking in.

Mia is starting to control me a bit more than Ana. Idk how to feel, I feel like Ana has better results. Any tips?

My party is tomorrow but I’m fat, if I keep consistent I’ll be an angel next year.

I want to commit suicide with my crush. Like overdosing and kissing each other then cutting our necks open. 🌸💕🦋

But before then I need to lose weight so she’ll want me.

I don’t think I’ve ever said this but my brother is like my favorite person, like he kinda annoys me, but like he knows everything, (ana/Mia/sh) and doesn’t tell our parents, like he doesn’t like it but he doesn’t snitch either. He’s so chill, and doesn’t chastise or lecture me, he’ll just be like ‘’You don’t eat? That’s corny bro.’’ And I love it. He’s literally so cool. We have the same humor too, and he’s only a year and a half older than me so we have the same experiences. It’s so cool being a teen with him. He’s lowk my twin.

I’ve been cvtting all afternoon..It’s so euphoric, but I always feel like I need to go deeper after a while bc it just doesn’t effect me in the same way. I’m always thinking about how much easier it will be to cvt when I’m thin.

I feel so pretty and empty after purging.

Breakfast⭐️

Just had a dinner that’s like 1,000 cals I’m sure. I could feel every one. 😔