Just Thinking - Blog Posts

If I ever can afford a house in the future all I can think of is having a large garden full of fruits and vegetables and a small kitchen to bake and cook to my hearts delight, Just thinking of banna bread and blue berry muffins

It's crazy I thought I would be dead by this age/nav

You won't believe but Jennifer's body and Hannibal are the two pieces of media that give me the perfect badass tgck vibes

Have a nice day 🫀

I love liking my own posts and comments (on other social media) first. It makes me happy that right after I posted it, It already has someone who likes it, me! It just makes me smile so I keep doing it. I did stop doing it for a while, cuz I thought it was like selfish or weird, but I like doing it so I continued!

Am I the only person who thinks bakugou would listen to underground rock bands so that when he listens to music and someone asks what he is listening to he can say "you probably don't know them" and then he tells you everything about the band in a total fanboy way but still keeps it cool

real asf i’m so tired of ts

Friends? Again? Nah.

And If I could go back to the day we met, I’m sorry, but I would turn around and walk the other way.

Why is it so hard sometimes to be able to get noticed on this platform? I make different content and I rarely see any likes or comments...

nikolai gogol she/her pronouns. hm.

i feel a bit alone here since i rarely get interactions like asks or comments... but at the same time, i love the peace. not being seen makes me less demanding of myself

🤔I know there’s controversy over Lily and Herman Munster having a werewolf kid. Since Herman is made up of other people’s parts, maybe he got a werewolf’s junk🤷🏻‍♀️ Anyway, that’s what is keeping my brain from thinking other things tonight

Why only stars and not the whole universe ✨

But like imagine if you tease him and stop before he reaches his high and then switch tehe :)

Felix when you take his whole cock to the back your throat for the first time. He’s so overwhelmed with pleasure…your mouth is so warm, so wet, and your throat so tight …

Do we ever talk about how Stanley aged? And I don't mean in a "haha younger twin look older" kinda way, but just how much he ran himself into the ground?

Imagine what Ford was thinking once he got a good look at Stanley. Without the judgement or bitterness, without the haze. REALLY looked at him. His sunken eyes, his thinning and greying hair, the layer of chub that has accumulated on his torso and arms. The amount of scars and marks he had earned.

The realization of just how much Stanley neglected himself in favor of him. Neglected himself in favor of the kids, of the business, of everything.

Maybe even the realization of how HE would have looked, if Stanley didn't swoop in all those years ago. How HE would look if he had to fight sleep at night and work his ass off during the day like he planned. The realization that Stanley took all that burden, and he'd do it again for him in a heartbeat.

I want to read about characters I've created but the source material doesn't exist because of the lack of a proper story for the characters but I also don't want to write it but also want to write it so it exists and I can read about and it just repeats over and over.

I have become obsessed with characters that don't truely exists yet outside of my brain and have no way to remedy it.

That would explain a lot actually. Especially if it was a parent or sibling or other family member. And what if he didn't know how to turn them back from pumpkin to human again before the pumpkin rotted away or was squashed? The guilt has to be eating at him.

I like this theory! Nice one @the-necromancer-wife! This could explain also why he has pumpkin bags- to keep them safe while he walks. He couldn't keep them safe before with walking, so he carries a bag to ensure the safety of whoever is in the pumpkin now.

OKAY HEAR ME OUT (please)

TW: Trauma//Psychological analysis

For someone so obsessed with the idea of true horror, Skully has an amazingly non-scary Unique Magic.

I mean, I tried. I tried imagining something scary about being turned into a pumpkin. You can't move your limbs, you're confined into that round shape that can be crushed if someone steps too hard on you. Still didn't seem an Unique Magic someone as him would have. Someone that gave such a dark speech about what halloween should be about.

And I thought about his words...

"Halloween is always serious and solemn, isn't it? So first, remove all the decorations. Then, paint the room completely black to recreate the atmosphere of night."

"The only thing they have left to survive the night is a single pumpkin, which they rely on to light a fire in the emptiness. Then you will feel a creeping fear..."

When I read those words for the first time I wondered why he mentioned a pumpking instead of a regular candlelight.

But seeing his unique magic, plus the fact he's still not very proficient with it, made me wonder further:

What if Skully turned someone into a pumpking? Someone he cared about. Someone who was important for him. And then, because he's still learning to control his magic, he couldn't turn them back.

What if he stood alone, in the dark, the pumpkin in his hands, shaking and completely terrified because of what he just did?

And what if this happened on Halloween Night, october 31?

That would explain his take on what Halloween should be about. I mean, for him, is not a time for celebration. It's a reminder of the mistake he made. And he said that himself:

"It is for reflecting on one's actions and atoning for them. It's meant for fear."

It would be entirely possible that he repeated the experience over and over, every year, making a funeral out of this day is his coping mechanism.

Additionally, he's doing what is called "Repetition Compulsion" according to Sigmund Freud (i know psychoanalysis is not the best psychology school but i very much prefer it) where the individual may place themselves in the same situation repeatedly, even if it is something they would prefer to avoid. And that includes repeating trauma.

Of course this compulsion can be considered a coping mechanism but also has a lot of other factors such as emotional dysregulation or being a consequence of a certain personality trait.

And why seeking this situation instead of avoiding it? Well, trauma manifest in different ways for each individual and some of them unconsciously seek out reminders of their trauma as a way to gain clousure.

According to Bowins B. in "Repetitive maladaptive behavior: beyond repetition compulsion":

By re-experiencing the trauma, they link the past to the present and they are able to gain some type of mastery or resolution. Unfortunately, this is rarely the case, and instead, people find themselves stuck in a pattern of maladaptive behavior.

Plus, imagine if the anniversary of something so tragic coincidentally is the day of a major celebration. Everyone laughing and singing and enjoying themselves and then there's Skully. He has nothing to celebrate for.

I feel everything so incredibly intensely. Like a gift I haven’t learned how to use yet. I know my emotions are a blessing, I know, but why doesn’t it feel that way? Have I not met the right people? Am I not healed enough to maintain relationships with others? I wish I just knew all the answers. I guess I don’t have to have everything figured out right now. All I know is I don’t need to be cured or fixed or saved, just loved. If for once in my life I could just have that genuine love and patience - I know it would help me. I know it would heal the broken pieces of me that I cannot heal alone. I’m not giving up hope yet, I won’t. Love is out there waiting for me and I’m getting ready. I am ready. But until I find it I’ll give myself all that love I desire until I’ve loved me enough to feel safe enough to allow someone else to love me as well.

Reading is fundamental, but critical thinking is essential. -Me :)

after crying is the best part, the knocked out, eyes swollen, dreariness, tired eyes, istg are like a reward for going through it, when i go to sleep afterwards, i always knock tf out and wake up with the best night sleep i’ll have in a while. and sure i look so high currently but it’ll be gone by the time i wake up and ill be brand spankin new again, just had to reset all of my emotions 🤭

i am not saying female characters cannot be homophobic, and neither am I saying all fics are like this. But if you just target female characters for the purpose of fighting homophobia you're either being lazy or misogynist. Gay people are literally being shunned around the world by religious bigots, toxic masculinity, the law system and politicians but the only cause of homophobia you could come up with is.... women. nice.

i know you guys are going to kill me for this but,,, When people write gay fiction on heteronormative shows e.g Sherlock, the female love interest is villainized or dumbed down. You try to show that homophobia and queerbaiting is bad but you just end up decimating female characters on the basis that they're 'coming in between the main ship' . Why. Aren't there other ways to fight homophobia other than just being wildly inaccurate or just plain mean about female characters? I can see this crap with Sharon Carter and Molly Hooper on this site.

saddest ninjago fact is that only one of the smith siblings can have an actual personality at a time