Jiraikei - Blog Posts

i cut myself with a dr pepper can

i cut myself with a doctor pepper can/ so funny

hhahahaahheehehheehahhahahahaa dr pepper ahhaha

i wanna get worse, I've grown to hate being aware of everything. Please Let my delusions wash over me again and make me see the "make-believe", it's the only way I've ever known. It's a way to make it through the days without shame or guilt. let me believe in my dearest darling for a while more, let this love that I feel never end or die. let the home I finally found be true and by God let me finally feel at peace even if it's only for a small moment

I'm clean for 160 days 😼😼

I want a girlfriend

I want someone

I want something

Her>>>>

My sister ♡♡♡♡♡ she is just like me♥︎♥︎♥︎♥︎♥︎

I hate it when I do something and it becomes popular.

@the-real-loser-otaku-girl @dolly-girl-rie @liminal-lover @magigirl-jirai

sorry i forgot you (T^T) @sakiyaki-sashimi

I want to disappear

I have the same thing on my forearms and this picture illustrates it well

(´･ω･)

Help this is TOO real

I think a lot of jirai/menhera committed suicide on January 1st :(

I hate when people say "jirai kei" is a fashion

I can't lose weight.... :(

I have my period TT

it hurts

I wanna die

I didn't throw up... I'm working tomorrow...

yessss I love winter and we can wear long sleeves without any problem

winter is the best season to be a jirai

The anxiety I get when I remember I might not have hid my blades properly

Trynna act cool and mysterious at the library knowing damn well I'm just scrolling on my silly tumblr 🧍‍♂️

70 followers >////<

Tyssmmm, I dont deserve all of you lol

IM ALSO 5 DAYS CLEAN NOW !!!!! It's so hard, i might relapse tonight, but still 5 days is a lot :]

I really want to cut off my friends because their so toxic and make me feel like shit, but I don't have anyone else to hang out with at school :/

I might not even talk to them, but at least I don't look like a fucking loner :(

One of them in particular is pissing me off cause they always tell me about their relationship struggles or their interests, and whenever I tell them something they dont listen. I can't care about them at all atp, like your partner doesn't like that you like men ?? Well I fucking told you that they were toxic I can't help you. The fuck do they want me to do ??? They send me weird images or weird things in general, and I tell them to stop and they never apologise and continue. They js make me uncomfortable and they used to punch me alot ╯︿╰ I fucking hate my friends, I'm gna jump into a meatgrinder.

hypersexual isn’t just being horny all the time btw please actually shut the fuck up

I don't rlly understand why I don't fit in with anyone :/ everyone just becomes boring, or is mean to me, or treats me in a way I don't want. I try to keep an open mind about my friends/people, but I want friends that are decent people. I want to surround myself with good people, because they would be good, and maybe I'd figure out the correct way to live and act around people, but everyone's who's bad has found there way to me ╯︿╰

I want to slitttt their throaatssss, it's not FAAIRRRRR, HOW COME THEY GET TO BE TOGETHER AND IM ALL SAD AND PATHETIC AND ALONE !!!!!

I was imagining the perfect partner in class again >////< Im going to try to get in classes without all of my current 'friends' because i just neeeeed to meet other people and find a partner whos js so nice >////<

Saw my moots @sw33tl1f3 do this poll so I'm doing it ^^

:3

"No M, you can't carve the name of all your mutuals and friends onto your body !"

God forbid a boy has hobbies 🙄

"you're all jirai enough" Until one of us is fat, pudgy, copes/deals with trauma in a different manner than what's commonly perceived, doesn't dress "dark girly", is transgender, is gay, is a man (????there's a literal term for Male jirais), is black, isn't European, isn't Japanese, isn't American, is from a second or third world country, *can't* dress "dark girly", doesn't self harm, doesn't do drugs, doesn't do alcohol, is hypersexual, isn't an NSO fan, is pro-recovery (that one's a little debatable but whatever), isn't a female in general, isn't deathly pale, doesn't have an ED, doesn't have "soul crushing" trauma, is undiagnosed, self harms but not by cutting, and the list goes on

It’s so weird that people’s first thought isn’t cutting themselves when they’re having a shitty day. Crazyyyyyy like I’m about to have the time of my life with my blades when I get home.

Another thing I hate with jirai tt is that whenever there's a darker skinned or plus sized jirai they don't classify them as one :(((

I wish I had a reason to attend school :P